you know when the sun forgets to shine, I'll be there to hold you through the night

Jeg endte opp med å melde meg syk til helgen. Føltes ut som om kroppen traff veggen på torsdag, og den var ikke noe bedre i går. Så selv om jeg egentlig hadde mange planer om å være produktiv i går, så innså jeg at jeg måtte dedikere dagen til å slappe av. Det er tross alt det kroppen har ønsket ganske lenge nå. Jeg lå på sofaen og så på tv. Plukket litt kirsebær, hvilket føltes veldig deilig ut. Det er ganske zen å være i hagen dersom du ikke må gjøre noe. Jeg har hatt lyst til å lese noen fysiske bøker, så jeg har reservert en del på biblioteket. Men siden jeg hadde lyst til å begynne å lese med en gang, begynte jeg på Mio, Min Mio av Astrid Lindgren. Jeg fikk boken for nesten tjue år siden av Volla, og jeg er ikke helt sikker på at jeg har lest hele boken. Begynte sist å lese den for de yngste niesene mine før de skulle legge seg. De er tilfeldigvis Volla sine døtre. Jeg har bare lest 1/4 av boka hittil. Jeg leser mye fiksjon, men ikke så mye barnebøker, men Lindgren er klassisk. Personlig er min favorittfortelling Per Pusling av Astrid Lindgren. Jeg avsluttet kvelden min i går med å brodere mens jeg så på en dokumentar. Følte meg fortsatt ikke særlig bra, og i tillegg var magen min plutselig veldig urolig. Jeg håper at det bare var noe jeg spiste. Jeg har ikke glemt gastroenteritt/magesjauen jeg hadde i vår, for det er noe jeg håper jeg ikke trenger å oppleve igjen. Hittil føler jeg meg bedre i dag. Hoster litt mindre, også fikk jeg sovet sammenhengende. Så utgangspunktet er mye bedre, og jeg er takknemlig for at jeg endelig har valgt å høre på kroppen. Når det er sagt, så har jeg veldig lyst til å gjøre en treningsøkt i dag. Det er nesten en craving å få rørt på kroppen. Jeg har jo faktisk tenkt at en av tingene jeg skal gjøre i ferien min er å prøve å jogge igjen. Det er nok urealistisk å forvente at jeg skal begynne å jogge regelmessig, men jeg har kjent på at jeg faktisk har lyst til å prøve igjen. Jeg skal bruke starten av ferien min på å gå igjennom målene mine for dette året og revurdere hva jeg ønsker. Fysisk aktivitet er en av de. Så det å jogge er noe som får vente til tidligst neste uke, for det er da ferien min teoretisk sett starter. Jeg skal bruke denne helgen til å komme meg, og forhåpentligvis bli frisk!

even when we're miles and miles apart you're still holding all of my heart

Niall and Harry on one of the thousand golf dates they've been to. So endearing.

even when we're miles and miles apart, you're still holding all my heart

My belieber friend had me listening to one of her beloved songs on her iPhone yesterday. It was most definitely not my cup of tea. And I actually like most types of music. In return she asked me to let her listen to my favorite song (except for One Direction). And I answered that I didn't have any favorite song. And then she told me to choose a song was "me". And what do I choose? Inseparable by The Jonas Brothers, the song that named this blog. The song that probably will stay in my favorites forever. It's just, the lyrics. If I ever do find love, I'd like it to be like that. Maybe it's a bit naive, because "I promise it will never be dark".  Course it's going to be "dark" sometimes. But, I just really love this song. As I said, it's probably always going to be in my favorites. And obviously, it's a reason I chose this exact song. Because it's the first song I know for certain is one of my favorites. I go through songs like a box of chocolate, and I get new favorites all the time. And I fall in love with more songs than I do anything. So, it's sort of a big thing. It's like, I can think of all artists and songs I've loved (and still love) throughout the years, and Inseparable is the only one that's stuck through all times. My belieber friend did surprisingly like it, which was lovely, I guess. You know when you're sharing something that lies near your heart, and you're afraid to share it, because you don't want the person to dislike it. So you hold your breath for a second, gauge the others reaction, and maybe it's a big thing too. Maybe it decides something for you, maybe it's the thing that makes you say yes rather than no.

Oh, alright, enough with vague blabber. I went to bed sort of early yesterday? At 1:00 am, because I was almost dead to the world. I had my first ever lecture in pathology yesterday, and I was almost dozing off. And that was because silly me thought it would be okay to sleep only four and a half hour the night before. I would probably manage with that amount of sleep another day, but this is after I've only slept five hours at top the whole week. So yeah, when you actually feel like your neck is no longer able to hold itself up, you're probably quite sleep deprived (or you might be very ill). To be fair, it's also a bit funny to be sleep deprived, because your humor changes quite drastically - like, everything becomes funny. But it's much more satisfying to sleep. And that's what I did today; slept in. And as I wasn't quite finished with ten hours sleep, I decided to take a nap after breakfast. Which means I slept another three hours. With the curtains wide open, which must mean I was really tired, because I never fall asleep with the light right in my face.

Today is my dad's birthday, which we sort of deliberately "forgot" this morning. And now we're going to bake a cake for him in celebration. I guess we're also celebrating my younger sister acing her oral examination today. And I finished reading another chapter of pathology today. And tomorrow I'm going to hang with my friends (who I sort of see every day anyway) so I'm just really happy? Like, I feel very satisfied. I guess it might have been something to do with the fan fiction I just finished too. I always feel very happy when I've read something beautiful and eye-opening. And when I'm just listening to lovely music (It's Time by Imagine Dragons - oh and now Winter Wonderland by Michael Bublé). Alright, I've gotta get going - gonna go do some squats and whatnot, before I hop in the shower and go bake that cake.