I just don't know what to do, my head has such a cloudy view. I'm so tired of trying

Hello, hello. Finally picked up my packages, which included this bobble-hat (all my hats are either gone, or Monchita has taken them) and my favourite face moisturiser. I cannot tell you my feeling of satisfaction when I put on my moisturiser after two weeks with an okay replacement. I indulged a bit in skincare yesterday, put in an order for a face oil I've never tried. Mind you, I've only tried one, which is the one I'm currently using. And while I like it plenty (kept my skin nice and moisturised throughout this winter), I'm open to try new things too. I don't mind spending a bit more money on skincare-- you're only gonna have this face once. And I always think of my skincare routine as a part of my self-care. I finally finished Lyrebird by Cecelia Ahern the other day. I picked it up before bed, and all of the sudden it was 2 am. I was halfway through, and decided to stop. I used to read through the nights before, however if I were to do that now, it takes me a bit longer to get back to my normal circadian rythm. It's one of the greatest things about youth, I think-- the ability to bounce back so quickly. The book seemed really intriguing when I first read the summary, and my head made an image of what it'd be like. It's pretty safe to say it wasn't at all like I had expected. It brought me a lot of emotions, a lot of anger (oh I have plenty of anger within me)-- however, I found that I didn't love it. I wanted so badly to fall in love with it, fall in love with a book, like I haven't in ages. I've ordered a new book, it's been on my list forever. I don't think it'll be like anything I've ever read before, and I'm really looking forward to it. If I could find it at my local library, I would preferably just borrowed it from there. But it's not. Yesterday Monchita and I bumped into Mars and the family whilst standing in line at the sushi-place (there is admittedly three sushi-places here, but this certain one is the one I frequently visit). It was a funny coincidence, because I'd just called Oyster to ask if they were home. We joined them for sushi, and just caught up. Not sure how long it's been since Monchita have seen them, but I know it's pretty long. I've just ordered planetickets, and Lynx just facetimed me. Apparently my oldest nephew is quite excited, though he's kind of acting too cool for it. It's hilarious. I'm planning to be a bit more productive tomorrow. I'll be getting rid of the excess clothing, haven't been able and/or been too lazy to actually go donate it. I'll have to do the same with my books another day, because those have to be delivered in the shop. I might go to IKEA tomorrow for storage boxes. It's just very little tempting to do all of these things. However, it'll be so good once I'm done. I have a feeling I'll either be really productive tomorrow, or not at all.