magnetic, you're pulling me in with the words you don't say

Years ago-- I can't remember when, or how I came across it, but I clicked on a link to this book on Amazon. And I decided to click on the cover, you know, how Amazon allows one to click on a book cover and read a few selected pages. In this case, I read the prologue of "I am not myself these days" by Josh Kilmer-Purcell. And like standing in the library and reading the first page of The Rosie Project by Graeme Simsion, I was hooked. Reading the prologue was like reading a piece of crack. Not meaning actual drug, but as in this definition: "basically, crack is silly, intentionally non-serious, and has a high tendency to be extremely crazy and unfounded [...]. As in, so horrendously unfounded/silly that only one could have come up with it while under the influence of crack" (urban dictionary definitions are great). I enjoyed the book a lot, though the ending confused me. It feels different to anything else I've read by a published author, but still similar to things I enjoy reading. At times it's funny, hilarious, and then it's heartbreaking. You know how I rediscovered The Paper Kites the other day? Well, my favourite song off the newest album is called Too Late, and it's basically a depressing song about a kind of love which isn't supposed to be, and the book is kind of like that. It's a good read, and one of those few I think I'll remember years on. I woke up early today, my body has grown used to it, I think. The good thing is that I've had a longer day, and I remembered to eat my smoked salmon I picked up the other day. I cannot remember the last time I actually had smoked salmon for breakfast. I kinda wanted to stop by the store today, but it's been a dark and uninspiring day, which made everything look bleak. I also kinda want to see how my brothers apartment is turning out, as he's getting the bed and sofa delivered today. It's all coming together. Yesterday I had a good day, but I was very aggravated by the news of the world. Trump especially, because it seems like he's turning into a dictator, and is actually living up to the expectations of him being a total douche. I am super thankful I'm not an American right now. It seems like Trump is going to be one of the most regressive presidents ever, and it's infuriating to see that he's trying to ruin all the good work. Then there's Erdogan, the Turkish president, who I would deem as a dictator these days. I don't know if I'm biased, but I will always lean more against democracy. The ideology just seems the most sane, also, dictatorship has a big history of being very harmful, devastating. I don't think I have to mention names of dictators just to prove that. On a much happier note, I really enjoyed the newest Teen Wolf episode. It definitely pulled on my heartstrings, and it was produced by Tyler Posey, so I was kind of going "what a dick," in my head whilst crying. I am really curious to how the last episode of the first part is going to be. I have hopes for it, but they're tamed by the disappointment of the last previous episodes.