sometimes I can't bear the thought that you're not here to see

Hi! I ended up going to bed at 11:00 pm yesterday, and woke up at 7:00 am today. Didn't get out of bed before 8:00 am. That's the luxury with the weekend, being able to lie around in bed for as long as you want. I started reading Veronica Decides To Die by Paulo Coelho. Well, I did start a week ago, but I read a few pages in before I thought it became a bit too boring. But today, after reading the first part-- the introduction, the real story began, which was much more interesting. I quite dislike it when authors write themselves into a character in their books? Feels a bit tacky, almost. But yes, it was really good and rather philosophical. Made me stop and think several times, actually. I sat down by the dining table in the living room when it was still dark outside, and the house was still silent. And I sat there for hours. Eating my breakfast, and then reading the book, which took me about three hours (more or less). During those three hours, it turned brighter, and the living room was invaded by my family, and the noise level was higher than it was at 8:00 am. I was in midst of a dark thought, when my dad came from the kitchen and put down some crackers and chocolate next to me. And I just felt this swell of fondness. It's odd how a little action like that can pull me out of morose thoughts and make my heart burst with affection. Oh, the body butter I was talking about yesterday is the Righteous Butter by Soap & Glory. I've been using another body butter for the past few months, but when I smelled this by Soap & Glory, it took me straight back to summer. When I first started using the product back in July, I was a bit sceptical to the scent, because I thought it was almost a bit male? But I learned to love it, and I'm going to slash some on now. I spent over five hours at the mall today, with Kiwi and Marble. Kiwi was getting a hair cut, and had some things she wanted to buy. She had a list, actually. In the end she only managed to buy one of those things on her list, ha. I'm pretty sure she bought a lot of different things though. Same with Marble. I only bought one top. And it was almost bloody free. I did try on quite a few things, but I just didn't fall in love with anything, really. In the midst of looking through clothes in H&M, Kiwi and I gasped. Marble looked at us like we were crazy, which she was right to do. Because seconds later, we started to dance along to the music. The song was Move by Little Mix, and I was even singing along, before I realised I was in a public space. Didn't stop me later on, when the mall was closing, and Say Something by A Great Big World and Christina Aguilera was playing in the speakers. We actually rushed to the different shops to the actual closing time. Well, actually, Marble bought something after the mall technically had closed. Anyway, I had a really nice time with the girls, even though my feet hurts a bit now. Walked home in the pouring snow, which made it really hard to see. But eventually, I got used to it, and it was even a bit nice. Next week, Kiwi and I are planning on attending at a Jonas Alaska concert. Kiwi introduced me to this artist, like she has done with several others. Which reminds me, she told me she'd found a new artist. Send me the name, Kiwi. Anyway, we happen to have bought the same top today, so we're planning on wearing the exact same things. Joke, course. Reminds me of the olden days (in my life), when my old best friend and I used to dress in the same things. Thought we were proper "cool" back then. I'm a bit afraid it's going to be cancelled though. I will probably always fear cancellations of shows now, after Kodaline. Oh well, if I do go to the concert next week, I hope it's going to be good. Have a nice Saturday evening, people. 

the day you died, I thought that I was gonna die as well

Hiya Snapback Direction! Except Harry isn't wearing one-- boo you Haz. Oh, I've got so much on my mind- and so much to write about, but I simply don't have the time to write. Did you know I actually spend quite a lot of time writing my blogposts? Well, I actually do. But I read this rather interesting list "25 THINGS TO ACTUALLY DO BEFORE YOU’RE 25", and it was really good (link in this whole sentence). Whilst I was working today I was in the scariest room in the whole kindergarten-- a room in the basement. Therefore I was blasting music in my ear. And as you might know, I'm still listening to the playlists Kiwi kindly made me for my birthday, and I don't actually see what the names of the songs are. It only shows up as: "spor 1". But I recognized the song as the song Kiwi, my belieber friend and I was listening to whilst sitting at the edge of Tjuvholmen weeks ago. And I can remember my belieber friend stating how sad the song was, and Kiwi agreeing furiously. I wasn't listening that intently, because I was busy filming the ocean. But when I was mopping the floor today, I was listening to the lyrics, and at the end of the song I was nearly crying. And now I finally understood what Kiwi and my belieber friend meant. It's called If Only As A Ghost by Jonas Alaska. Oh, my sister just came knocking on my bedroom door and asked: "have you seen the sun?". And I was like: "erm, what?", because I thought she was wondering whether I'd ever seen the sun, and it sounded like such a silly question to ask, and my sister is far smarter than a four (five?) year old kid, so I was hesitating to answer her. She asked again: "have you seen the sun?". And I just stared blankly at her, because, I just couldn't figure out what she meant-- and then literally a minute after, I finally understood what she meant. "Oh, you mean the sun right now?". And she nodded. You see, my younger sister and I have similar interest in the moon and the sun. And well, it was after her 4:00 am walk, that I decided to do the same in order to watch the sunrise. Well, the sun was big and red right now. Well, it's gone now, but it was amazing, and I couldn't capture it with my camera. I actually went downstairs to ask my eldest sister and her fiance (alright, can I just call him Grepper from now on? It's a combination of grey pepper, which turns out to be the first thing I thought of with the capital G) whether they wanted to see the red sun. My eldest sister and Grepper shrugged, and said "alright, why not go see the red sun?". And we were all standing on the balcony side by side, staring at the sun, having a discussion of why it's red. My eyes hurt a bit now-- I don't think you're supposed to stare directly at the sun- ever. But it was really nice. A nice happening to squeeze into my memory for safe keeping. I'm looking forward to tomorrow, because it's the weekend, and I'm going to meet up with Kiwi and Sugar for a brief meeting, and then I'm going to the cinema with my sisters, Grepper and probably my brother. Alright, I've actually got to go now.