forcing laughter forcing smiles

Christmas is almost over, and I've enjoyed every bit. I must admit that things were a bit different this year. One of my family member did not join us this year, and it didn't feel quite right. I suppose it is only a matter of time before everyone disappears, but hey - let me feel sad about it first. Oh, and I've really been looking for this outfit I saw on the H&M Magazine .. and it turns out that the "dress" is a kimono. Sadness. Anyways, I've gotta go to bed. My mom's birthday is tomorrow, and it's Christmas-sale everywhere. How can we miss it?

han fick hela världen och månen därtill

You step outside. The piercing wind slightly brushes your face. You breathe through your mouth, because it's too darn cold to breathe through your nose. You put your frozen hands in your pocket, deciding whether to go back inside, or continue. You know perfectly well, that you cannot afford to go back inside. There's no time. As you pace towards your goal, you observe your toes slowly turning numb. Numb as stones. So when Frank Sinatra sings; "walking in a winter wonderland" Yes, indeed!

Just finished wrapping some gifts. And I finally finished reading The Carrie Diaries today. What do I think? Easy to read, entertaining, but nothing special. However, it was especially entertaining as I've seen the Carrie from Sex and The City. As I was at the mall today, I recognized the DVD, and decided to bring one home. Anyways, yesterday we went to the city, and as we were walking to Fridays, we spotted a Christmas market! And I thought we didn't have any over here! Ah, for one second it felt like I was in Germany. I ate a ceasar salad, which is not usually my choice of food. But as I'm trying my best to eat healthy I thought I'd give it a try. And I must say, lovely vinegar bread, and such a full salad! My brother arrived yesterday, and my sister is coming today. Merry Christmas.

waiting outside the lines

(Photos: Andreas)
I am perfectly aware of the fact that I haven't blogged for a while, but I do have many reasons why. 1 The past week, I had 2 tests, Math and Sociology. On Monday I have another test in Psychology. 2 It's Christmas in one week. So all I've been doing for the last weeks is studying to tests. I haven't really done much Christmas-shopping, which means I have to shop till I die. Monday after school I'm going straight home for a snack, and then to the town, and then I have to stop by Ikea. Finally I have to go home, and do some cleaning before my brother comes home on Tuesday. And then Tuesday - last day at school, I'm going to the town with some of my friends. Have a Christmas-snack at some cafè, perhaps do some ice-skating. Afterwards I'm headed to do some more shopping. Hopefully, I'll be done. If not, I have to go shopping the 23rd.

I really shouldn't be blogging now, I have to study some more. Ah, I cannot wait to Christmas break! My only problem is; all the tests is really taking away my Christmas spirit. In fact, I don't know if I've ever felt some Christmas spirit this year. Time travels too fast! I mean, Summer was just here!!

say you love me more than you did before

I just listened to "Stay" by Miley Cyrus. And it reminded me of summer. OH, how I miss summer! In this cold weather, heating up my body takes a lot of energy - hence my stomach's cry for food. I've gotta go eat something.

I'm dreaming of a white christmas

Yesterday was fun, and so was today. Well I don't know if I can say math- and sociology homework is fun to do. I went to S's birthday, and we sang ABBA songs, played some games and ate pizza + cake! At 11:30 I went to A's and slept over. Then today we started packing - because she's moving. I love everything about moving. Except leaving and stuff. The next week is gonna be busy. I've got some tests, and some Christmas-shopping to do. Hope this Christmas will be the best, because 2010 has been great so far.

stuck in my head

I witnessed a car accident today. And it wasn't just a little one either. I sat in the bus, and looked out. It was over in a few seconds. Two cars collided like two balls bouncing at each other, and almost jumped back. It was a terrifying moment. As it was partly because of the bus-driver, he should have gotten out and checked if they were okay. However he drove away slowly, and nobody knew what to do. What do you do in a situation like this? A friend called the police, and nobody died. But I think one of them was really hurt - because I couldn't see her moving in the car until a minute after the crash. This is something I'll probably never forget. It was all so clear, and it happened right outside my bus-window. It's haunting. It could have been me, you, or anyone else.

move into my skin

First: I hate when my mom nags about everything. Just had to share that. Anyways, today was actually a great day. Had the best English class today. And as you can see, it's extremely cold outside. Colder than I thought. I've also tried on Dove Summer glow. It's only been two days, but I can see some changes. I'll tell you how it goes later. As for now, I look a tad orange ..

all we ever do is say goodbye

(Photos: Gary Pepper Vintage)

I love the black heels. They're like art. Art you can use. Seriously - they are perfect.

keep your eyes locked on mine

I've had probably the most relaxing day. Doing everything I wanted to do when I was busy studying to tests .. the last weeks. I didn't go to the mall today, but I'm going tomorrow. And I can't wait. I feel like, it's the mall and all those people running around buying Christmas presents and decorations, who really make me feel jolly. I just finished reading Getting rid of Matthew by Jane Fallon. And it was really funny. Probably not a book I'll remember in the future. But definitely good for a laugh. Currently listening to Higher by Taio Cruz and Kylie Minogue while doing some homework. Life can be very good sometimes.

feel the adrenaline

Just watched SATC 2 for the second time. And I feel like dressing up. "Breakfast, dinner or party - do it in style." that's exactly what Carrie Bradshaw does. She lies in the couch in an emerald green colored gown. Even her underwear is stylish. SATC 2 is one of my favorite movies this year. Tomorrow I'm going shopping, and hopefully, I won't go crazy. However, I haven't been shopping in awhile now. I guess school work has taken all my time. I really do want an emerald green colored dress.

too cold for you to keep her

(Photos: old pictures by me.)
Today was a great day. Well, it's been ups and downs. But it's what happens in the end that matters, right? I have this annoying guy in my class, who I hate at times, but he also makes my day most of the time. Also there's this girl, who is such a mood spreader - and her laugh is so hilarious. Whenever she's happy, we're happy. Whenever she's sad, we're sad. I cannot wait for tomorrow. Friday is my absolute favorite day. It's the day where I can relax, and it is the day where I actually want more school. And by "more school" I mean more fun gym with my class.

I like the way it hurts

I am so fucking tired. Do you know how it is like having lots of time, and lots to do? But then you use that time on stupid things, and you end up with lots to do, with no time. This is my habit. And yesterday I didn't start practicing to my oral/verbal test until 00:00, and fell asleep 01:00. Woke up 06:00, went to school 07:30. Sat in a room practicing until 08:45. Had a conversation with my teacher. Had the oral/verbal test 09:15. So now I'm tired as hell, and I'd like to sleep, but sadly I have another oral/verbal test on Thursday. Funny fact; Did you know that you pronounce Volkswagen "Folkswagen"? It is German, and means peoples wagon. You pronounce V like F in Germany. So, whenever people says Volkswagen, it's really Folkswagen.

Anyways, I just borrowed "Getting rid of Matthew" by Jane Fallon today. It looked pretty amusing, and I can't wait to start reading it. Oh, and did you see my jacket? I love the color. If you're wondering, it is yes, a winter wonderland. But with -16 C/3,19 F it is pretty damn cold outside. Probably none kids outside now. But hey, tomorrow it's December 1st! And it's all so exciting. It's 25 days until Christmas!