I was angry, angry and furious at a moment. After a moment of backtracking from my plans of scoffing angrily at anyone who came across my path, I analysed myself and realised the anger was mostly aimed at myself. It was a good thing I was hoovering, as I find that I can often let out anger by angrily hoovering carpets. Once I came to the realisation that I was angry at myself more than anything, it's like my body sagged from the anger leaving so suddenly. Still having trouble with accepting the fact that I cannot always do everything I want to, even when theoretically it is absolutely possible. I spoke too soon about the pain on Friday, as just a few moments after posting my blog post, I couldn't concentrate on anything else than trying to relieve pain. It wasn't the most awful I've felt, which made it pretty alright, and in a few hours the pain abated. Pretty much disappeared, actually, which is the only positive thing about having painful starts of my periods. I can rapport that I've finally had pretty good skin days for what seems like forever. Since my last period and before that, when I was premenstrual, I've had a lot of zits that just didn't really ever wanna go away. I do regularly get zits whenever my period is present, but they eventually disappear. But not this time, so even if I haven't actually had a period for a month, the zits made me feel like I had a constant period. Also, the weather is milder, so my nose has regained it's moisture (I've also been slapping on a moisturising face mask on my nose every night, so that might also be a reason for why) and is no longer flaking. So you know, gotta be thankful for the good skin days, although I did have a realisation that skin isn't meant to be constant. It's everchanging. My weekend was pretty good, I spent all of Saturday doing Christmas-related things such as putting up the tree. I had my usual fight with the lights, and finally gave up. But it's fine, it looks alright in my opinion. I didn't really think too much about the decoration, as I normally go for a mostly red tree. With hints of silver and other colours in between. Once I thought I was done, I carried the rest of the ornaments back to the basement. However, I realised I'd forgotten the candy canes, and seriously, candy canes on a Christmas tree is like the icing on the top for me. I go for a fairly "natural" look when decorating the tree, but candy canes gives just the right amount of "kitsch" to a tree. I was done with decorating the tree and the other Christmas decor earlier than expected, so I started on my Christmas cards. And obviously I had to paint a few candy canes, and they ended up as my favourites. I also started a DIY-project, but it got pretty late into the evening, and it doesn't do too good when you're looking down constantly for several hours. I prepped some carrots, and then I basically got ready for bed. Because I decided on staying in bed for longer than planned, I didn't have time to do my cleaning before getting in the shower and getting ready to meet up with the girls. But I did have enough time to write down my weekly goals before I had to run out of the door. We went to see the newest Fantastic Beast movie, and as I haven't seen the first, it was interesting trying to figure out the plot of the movie. I think we were all a bit disappointed, as it seemed like it was a bit of a filler-movie, and it ended once things are really supposed to start. Obviously, I can see that it's probably needed to understand the next movies, but for me who is probably not going to see all of the movies, it's definitely not a movie strong enough as a stand-alone. Regardless, it was nice going to the movies again, as it's been ages since I last was. Afterwards we walked to a restaurant, where we were actually seated at the same table as we were seated for a previous 17th of May celebration. Marble and I ordered the same thing. I can't say for her reasoning, but I personally feel like you can never go wrong with a robata grill dish. To be fair, I am a fan of all things grilled. We chatted about life as you do, and I was reminded of how nice it's to just hang with friends and have a chat. I had a glass of vino tinto, as it almost feels like I've become accustomed to have a glass of wine with my meals. When I eat at a restaurant, that is. I did my yin yoga in bed before going to sleep, and although it's definitely not meant to do in bed, it was rather nice. I made chocolate mousse on Saturday amongst all of the other things I did, and although it's not the same texture as my beloved store-bought ready-made mousse, it's a very good dessert. I will most definitely purchase more. I woke up early today, as I spent most of yesterday reading fan fiction. I want to get back into a routine and be productive with my days, which means I need to wake up earlier. I felt more energised and positive as a result today, and I've been reading a book about a qualitative method, as I wanted to know more about the way of analysis before starting to read through my data. I am hesitant to start on my data, because, well, I haven't ever done an analysis like this before. So I feel a bit unsteady. But I'm soon done reading through the book, which means I've no excuse to not start reading through my transcripts. It'll be fine. After last week, where I felt like I did the bare minimum when exercising, I am more motivated today. I think I just got stuck into a certain routine and needed to get out of that.
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