And a part of me keeps holding on just in case it hasn't gone. I guess I still care. Do you still care?

It's proper autumnal weather outside now. I'm loving the colour of the leaves on the ground, although I would love some sunshine. Adele is releasing new music, and I'm very excited. I've heard a snippet of her new single, but I'm not sure I actually like it. To be fair, I tend to not favour singles of hers. So I'm still very excited. Also, imagine going to an Adele concert. It would be a dream, especially considering the fact I haven't been to a concert in years now. My night shifts passed by pretty quickly, but I'm working an extra shift during the weekend. That means I've been working at least one shift per weekend for three weeks. I told my colleague that I am not going to work any extra shifts the next weekend. No way Jose! Even if I'm only working one extra shift this weekend, it's a night shift. Meaning I've gotten off work today and will be able to have this day off. But I'm hella tired. Tomorrow I'm on for another shift, and then I've got Sunday off. But I'll be hella tired then too. So it'll basically feel like I haven't been able to recuperate. I wonder how fucked up my circadian rhythm is going to be, but ah well. I got my new face moisturiser in the mail yesterday, and I'm currently testing it out. I'm not sure about it at all, but I've also got another moisturiser I only got to try out a little bit. Hopefully my skin will be alright with me testing out all of these products. Other than testing skin care, I've been taking academic notes whilst watching Diagnosis on Netflix. I've not taken notes on the series, but on kidney-related illnesses. One of my goals this year was to read a bit more theory about the illnesses I can come across at my work. I've gained loads of practical knowledge at my "new" workplace, but I realised there's absolutely no downtime during work to gain theoretical knowledge. We've got a few seminars now and then, but I still think we could do better. I've realised that I'm a person who now and then loves gaining more knowledge. Also, I think I've hit a bit of a wall, and I've stopped to do a bit of a reflection. It's been very easy to just go with the flow at work. Just working and going through with the motions, but after reflecting I realised I want to do more than that. I realised I've been a bit disappointed in myself as a nurse, and I want to get better. That being said I do think I'm a good nurse, without being all arrogant. Still, I always want to be improving. So it seems like I'm finally feeling up to my goal of doing more academic reading. Furthermore I'm going to be having a new student following me around in a few weeks. Due to their special circumstances, I kind of want to be a bit more prepared too. Might read up on pedagogy too.