What if to love and be loved's not enough? What if I fall and can't bear to get up? Oh, I wish, for once, we could stay gold

Kiwi and I strolled through the Christmas-y parts of town after the kilo-gang had dinner together on Tuesday. I had a jolly drink, named Berry White. I'm a sucker for a pun, and berry drinks are always a good idea around Christmas times. That is my personal opinion, of course. Although the weather was awful, it was nice to see all the lights. Usually, or, well, the past few years Christmas spirit has always made a way to me. Though usually before Christmas. So I'd be reading curriculum, revising for an exam and feeling all jolly. This time, however, it seems to just have evaded me completely. It's still two weeks left until Christmas Eve, so it might still arrive. Kiwi, dressed in her green coat and bubble hat actually made me feel a bit Christmas-y, just by her outfit. Anyway, I've spent this day doing mundane and boring things I've been putting off for awhile. Went through important documents, did a cleaning. It reminds me that I have to buy a binder, so I can sort all of them out. As we are going travelling, it means there's a lot of pre-work to do. Research. We went to have vaccines on Tuesday, and I'll probably be back there in a few days. I also need to see my doctor about the travels. Need to think about bills that has to be paid when we're gone. Need to have official documents in order. I postponed thinking about it until now, because back then it would have been too early. I've been having a really hard time trying to get up early in the mornings. Even when I've gotten a good amount of hours, I still can't get up at my first alarm. I don't understand whether it's the lack of a routine, too many late nights, or just the weather. Or, well, it might as well be a combination of all those. My sister and nephews are flying in tomorrow, and I've really been looking forward to it. Too bad I'm also working whilst they are here. Regardless, I'm going to spend tomorrow (my day off) having cuddles. For now, I might convince myself to do some exercise (oh god, let's not go down that road), and then there's a handball match tonight. Yes.