written on these walls are the colours that I can't change

Here it is! I kept my promise for once! I bought the lipstick a week ago, but it's called "Diva Red" and it's by Rimmel. Yesterday I bought myself a new "Face and body" foundation by MAC, because I needed a lighter shade for my winter skin. And as you can see in the second photo, it's quite the difference. Both in size and color. I went with a 50 ml bottle because that was the only one available in the shop, but also because I wouldn't need a bigger one. I've had the 120 ml bottle for ages, and it's a bit unpractical as you can't travel around with it in your hand luggage. So yes, now it's all solved. I also bought a blush called "Peaches". It's a very nice coral colored blush, which is my favorite color for blushes anyway. The day has passed in a whim, and I forgot that it was late right now, and er, blasted music for a bit. Whoops. I'm listening to the new playlist Kiwi sent me, and it's so chill. It's actually like one of the hundreds of playlists on 8tracks when I search for the tags: "sleeping", "chill", "calm", etc. You know what? I was scrolling through Liam Payne's ex's Twitter, and she wrote about Union J, and saying it was her second favorite boyband. My heart melted a bit then. And speaking of One Direction, I think it's a bit unfair how Zayn always looks so bloody dashing and broody and just really pretty. Goodness gracious, can't decide whether I'd like to see him as a model or an actor in Skins. Probably both. Anyway, I didn't go to bed until 10:00 pm last night, but it was so needed. Albeit, I did still feel a bit groggy in the morning. And the first lecture was interesting in my opinion, but that's because it was basically human geography, and I love that. And then we had another lecture that was a bit more on the boring side in my opinion. But we managed to get through it, Kiwi and I. After school I went home, finally not when it's rush time-- which I really do loathe. I mean, Sugar used to complain about the public transport a lot, but I think I've taken her role now. I'm just not good with being tired and crowded areas with bad air. Anyway, I went home to finish the birthday card to my sister. Then I went to the mall to post it, and did all the errands I was supposed to do. The only thing I've not done on my to-do-list for today, is to finish my paper. I guess I'll just do it on Friday. I've got the time, so I'm not too stressed about it. I'm actually going out tomorrow for Halloween. I've not dressed up for Halloween in years, so that will be interesting. Other than that, I've finally managed to watch the new "tard" being born into the world. Meaning the offspring belonging to Shay Carl and Colette a.k.a. the Shaytards. I did surprisingly not weep at the birth, but I did weep when I saw Sontard holding Brotard for the first time. I've just got a sweet spot for Sontard, because he is genuinely the sweetest kid ever. And then I went on to watch Kayli and Casey announce that they're pregnant. And that was a bit emotional too. And then I read a ghost fanfiction, and that was sad too. So I've been weeping a bit. (Is it really awful if I write: "and that's the story of my life" as a pun? Yeah? Okay). Have a nice night, and sleep well.

wish I could freeze this moment in a frame and stay like this

We'll huddle up in the bed under the duvets, limbs entwined, using our body heat and lazy kisses to warm us up. And we'll decorate the Christmas tree with homemade ornaments with presents beneath wrapped in newspapers. And we'll listen to Christmas music on the crappy CD-player we picked up at a flee market. And in the mornings we'll gulp down scorching hot tea, in hope that we'll survive this winter. And it's okay, just as long as we have each other.

Sometimes I'll be on Twitter, and half of the time I'm not even aware of the trending topics being related to One Direction. It will be completely random, and I find myself clickling them in boredom. And then it's like oh. And then it's like okay. But yesterday was quite a big day in the fandom of One Direction. All the boys were sporting with ladies on their arms, except for Niall who was hanging out with Ed Sheeran and Michael Buble, because that is the absolute normal thing to do. Harry was out with Taylor Swift, and I'm a bit scared we will get a single by Taylor called "The green eyed boy with the dimples". Although I don't think she would actually name a song that long, considering her album name is Red. Three letters. But the thing is that they look happy together, and if it makes Harry smile, then that's it really. What excites me the most is probably Liam and Danielle getting back together. It's just that I always thought forever whenever I saw a picture of them. And I don't want to say that I know, because I don't, but I just really believe that one day they will get married. It's almost palpable in my mind. But people change and promises are broken, so who am I to say anything like that? Wish I could freeze this moment in a frame and stay like this.

I'm so happy because I think that maybe I'm going back to the habit of watching Youtube. If I could have chosen, I would go back to when I was unaware of One Direction, and only obsessed with the Shaytards and everything else. Except now I've grown tired of Shaytards, and instead taken a liking to British vloggers only. And it's so fun, because everyone seems to know each other in some way, and it's just so delightful to see my favorite youtubers popping up on my screen. It's like I cannot listen to American people anymore, because it just isn't right. I can't explain it, but I tried watching an American vlogger that I used to watch all the time before, but I just cringed. And I did watch an episode of Hannah Montana whilst eating my pasta for breakfast. Oh wait, that was dubbed. Never mind. Maybe I've just grown tired. And someday I might grow tired of the One Direction boys too.

It's really cold out, and I didn't even realise the coldness radiating from the walls, until my sisters head popped inside my room and stated it's really really cold. And now I feel a bit sad, because I'm wondering if that man I walk past on my way to school is still out there. Freezing his fingers off trying to earn some money with that instrument of his. I hope not. The winter has arrived, but it's not snowing. But it feels right almost, for it to be this cold. When I think of winter I think of that winter we had two years ago, the coldest winter I've ever experienced. And now I always find myself comparing winters to that one. Oh, but it's not nearly as cold as it was .. And I do the same with summers.

happiness is a choice

"If you're happy and you know it .. SMILE!" -Babytard

you got a heart that could glow in the dark

My Elf-parcel arrived today, which consequently made me a HAPPY girl. Anyways, I commented on a Shaytards-video earlier .. and then I noticed that someone had replied to my message. So I went to the video, and I noticed that my comment had over a hundred thumbs up! I was mighty surprised, and I proudly showed it to my younger sister. She laughed. Story of my life!