hope you'll be safe in the arms of another, 'cause I can't take the weight of your love

Jeg har faktisk gledet meg til å rydde i dag, for soverommet trengte det. Støvsugde faktisk madrassen, før jeg skiftet sengetøy. Også har jeg ryddet i kopp-kolleksjonen, for jeg har jo samlet på kopper i mange år. Kvittet meg med to kopper, og jeg sa meg fornøyd med det. I morgen er det oppstart av nytt emne, og derfor tilbake til forelesninger på skolen. Tja, det blir nok mer kurs-form med øvelser i dette emnet. Det blir spennende å se hvordan jeg liker/misliker det. Men dette blir altså egentlig mitt siste emne i dette studiet, og siste gangen jeg har undervisning. Siste gangen jeg skal være med klassen utenom seminarer neste år. Det føles litt ut som om vi akkurat startet på skolen, så det blir litt merkelig at vi snart ikke kommer til å ha tradisjonell skole sammen. Ukens to-do liste er ganske lang, og mye lengre enn de forrige. Det er mye som skal gjøres denne uken for at jeg får utnyttet de neste ti ukene godt. Jeg er veldig glad for at jeg kun har en eksamen igjen nå, for det betyr at det ikke er like mye å sjonglere samtidig. Planen er å skvise inn så mye tid som mulig til å skrive prosjektbeskrivelse, og finne tid til å møte veileder. Men det blir en fin måned også, med det fine vår-været, babyshower til neste helg, og konserter! Det er en sånn liten redsel i meg for at Sam Smith må kansellere, fordi han gjorde det med Bergenfest for tre år siden. Måtte gå tilbake i bloggarkivet mitt, og jeg ble overrasket over at vi faktisk så Ben Howard på Bergenfest. Hadde helt glemt at jeg faktisk har sett han live, men da trenger jeg kanskje ikke å angre på at jeg ikke kjøpte billett til konserten hans i juni. Men jo, konserter, det blir bra. Det blir litt travelt med skole, men jeg er jo fortsatt ung nok til at jeg klarer meg? En av tingene jeg har planlagt å gjennomføre denne uken, er å levere engangskameraet mitt for fremkalling. Jeg gleder meg til å se bildene, for jeg husker egentlig ikke når jeg kjøpte det og begynte å ta det i bruk. Vanligvis har jeg kjøpt engangskamera i tide til sommeren, men i fjor hadde jeg glemt det helt. Nå skal jeg forsøke meg på en treningsøkt, også skal jeg bare slappe av. Forhåpentligvis går det greit å stå opp tidlig i morgen, men slik som jeg har våknet tidlig den siste uken, så går det kanskje greit. 

with your presence and your grace, everything falls into place

I started my day at 7 am this morning. I woke up naturally, and I've actually slept through the nights for at least two nights. I didn't get out of bed until two hours later almost, when my stomach was yelling at me to get some breakfast. Think I've been in a headspace of my typical Sunday, because I've cleaned the house through. Apart from doing the dishes-- Monchita did that. I de-cluttered three drawers in the living room and re-organised them. It was very satisfying indeed. Once I was done cleaning, and then making lunch, I decided to put on make-up, just because. Some days I actually want to wear make-up, and the days I know I'm not going outside, I usually try to experiment with some eyeshadow. The weather has gone cold again, and it's been snowing the past few days. Luckily it hasn't stuck to the ground, and we've still got spring-like weather. Due to Easter being around, the television is showing a lot of family movies, I find. I watched the whole of Despicable Me for the first time yesterday (I've probably seen the first 15 minutes six times), and it was good. Had a proper laugh. I'm currently watching Ice Age, and it just reminded me of how far computer animated films have come. Ah, computer animated films is childhood, but it's I also enjoy watching them now. The parents are gone, and Monchita is off seeing her friends for the last night she'll sleep here. 

bitter sweet and strange, finding you can change, learning you were wrong

Why don't I read Sherlock Holmes fan fiction, I thought to myself yesterday, as I'd finally finished watching the four seasons. And then I managed to find one which is 2577 pages in iBooks. I've decided that you become highly fond of the main characters in Sherlock Holmes, which is a good thing. I am therefore highly enjoying this fan fiction I've found. That being said, I should hope to finish it soon, because if I want to go with the "read a book a month", I should finally pick up the book on my nightstand. I have been the epitome of laziness today. I've practically done naught but sprawl on my beloved bed. I've done a bit of a sorting out my t-shirts. I am due an organisation of my whole closet, but I'm waiting for the weather to become a bit more warmer, a bit more "hello, I'm spring, and I'm here to stay". I've recently seen two birds building their nests, and it's such a nice sign of spring. I'm looking forward to a walk with Marble this weekend. The weather forecast seem to be on our side. I'm going to do a bit of exercise in a minute, which hopefully will counteract my laziness today. 

last night you were in my room and now my bedsheets smell like you

I am somehow exhausted despite having a pretty calm day at work. I suspect it might be the lack of sleep I had, but it doesn't really add up. I did feel really sore at the end of the day, due to exercising yesterday. But still. To my great joy, my skincare arrived today. It's perfect timing because I'm just about to use up my face oil. Scent is an important thing to me when it comes to skincare, so I tend to sniff things before I make the purchase. I ordered the new things online, which means I wasn't capable of doing that. It's definitely interesting-- probably will grow on me. Speaking of growers, yesterday I watched a dance choreography to Shape of You by Ed Sheeran, and it made me like the song a lot. Made me want to dance, obviously. I heard both of the new singles the day they were released, but to my confusion, I found that I didn't really like any of them. I did really enjoy the beat and chorus of Shape of You (and the oh-i-oh-i-oh-i part) when I first heard it. It's just the verses I wasn't so fond of. I've tried listening to the other single multiple times, but it's just not my cup of tea. To be fair, I think I'll be bored with the one I do enjoy quickly. That being said, I'm very excited to listen to the whole album. I'm looking forward to this music year. Bad news is Obama(s) stepping down. I just get gobsmacked sometimes, thinking of how much of a difference he has achieved. Also, Michelle-- what a lady! Both of them seem to be some of the coolest people. Tomorrow might shape out to be a busy day. I have a feeling my legs will be quite sore at the end of the day. I'll be bringing my two bags of books to donate them. Then I'll probably be helping my brother move, whatever that entails (I'm excited). And I'm going to taste a supposedly great burger-- according to Oyster, who tipped me about it. We shall see if it'll end up in my top 4. 

you stick around and I just don't know why

Dreams have been weird lately. I dreamt about burning to death a few weeks ago-- screaming at the pain of my skin slowly burning. I had to check the window when I awoke, just in case it was burning. Yesterday I dreamt of a person close to me drowning in a stupid accident caused by idiots. We tried our best at reviving her, and at a point it seemed like she was halfway alive, halfway dead. Morbid, I know. I tend to define the day by the light, which makes the days quite short nowadays. And I need to get things done before the light is gone, because then it feels like such an effort. I had planned today's itinerary to the t, however plans change. My dad drove me to get rid of more bags of clothing, then we headed to the grocery store. Out with the old, and in with the new. I mentioned a new jacket the other day-- it arrived today. It's darker than what it appears like in my pictures, and it's got a raw peplum hem. It's oversized on me, only comes in two sizes I think. I'd rather it be oversized, than tiny. It says it's a shirt, and the material is thin. I will be wearing it as a jacket though. Did I mention it's vintage? I think it's supercool, probably the coolest piece I own in my wardrobe. It's satisfying to be really happy with a purchase. The newest episode of Teen Wolf is yet again one of those I don't really enjoy, but I'm patient. I'm guessing it's one of those episodes that has to happen for the story to evolve. I'm looking forward to the next episode though, because things got exciting at the end. But then again, this first story-arch is done in two episodes, which is frightening. Because then we have to wait however many months until part two. I hadn't exercised in two weeks until today. I did a long session today, and I spent some time on my abs. I've not focused on them in months, they've been in hibernation. Apart from "being nicer to myself," I didn't set any New Years resolutions. I do, however want to be better at exercising regularly. I'd like the same dedication to eating chocolate only on Saturdays to this goal too. We'll see. I thought I was done with getting shots (vaccinations), but I'm getting another one next week. I also need to book an appointment with my doctor. It's all a part of another focus this year: my health. I tend to neglect it.  

your Volvo lights lit up green and white, with the cities on the signs

Yesterday was a productive Monday. Before 1 pm, I'd cleaned and hooved the house basically. I had done the dishes, put a load of wash in the washer, then hung it up. I prefer cleaning when no one is in the way, alas; when I'm alone. Today, however, I didn't get out of bed until late, and I've basically been sat in the sofa, watching television. I think it's the natural way of living-- at least for me. I've got days I am highly productive, and then I need a day off. I need to go to the shops, but I've been putting it off. That being said, I have just finished going through the closet in the hall. I've gotten rid of six grocery bags already, and I filled six more this evening. If I can be bothered, I'll take some of the bags to donate tomorrow. I could probably get rid of more pieces, but some of them aren't mine. I do want to get rid of the dress I wore to my sister's wedding, purely because I cannot breathe whilst wearing it. It's such a nice dress though-- I feel like I should either give it away (do I know someone with a smaller rib-cage than me?) or try to sell it. The latter sounds like such a hassle. Hm, I'll have to have a think of it. It's kind of strange, because I'm itching to spend money on something. Maybe it's not so strange when I've gotten rid of so many things? I ordered a pair of trousers hours ago. I found a pair the other week, and it looked like my dream pair. Obviously my size wasn't in stock wherever I looked for them. And I have been waiting to see if they would re-stock them (they still haven't). However, I found a cropped version, which I am crossing my fingers will be fine. I guess I'll just have to wait and see then. I wouldn't really ever order jeans or trousers online, unless I know my size in the certain model, but they just look like they could be the one. And sometimes it pays off taking chances. I am feeling the January blues, and all pictures of tanned skin and sunshine makes me either long for those days, or highly jealous and therefore aggravated. Inspiration is lacking these days, and I feel a bit meh. In other words, I am highly looking forward to spring. 

when you left this town, with your windows down and the wilderness inside

The youngest sister has gone home, and I'm slightly surprised by my sadness. Actually, it feels like I've just had a delayed reaction, like it came now in January, instead of August when she actually moved out. I do remember feeling likewise when my brother went off to another part of the country to attend school. Although we're not exactly chatty siblings, not verbally communicative siblings, we're still a close group. I love them all dearly, and I'm grateful to have grown up with them around me. My brother will be moving to his new apartment soon too, and I'll be the remaining kid in the house. I'm not the most sociable person there is, in fact I'd say I'm the opposite. However, I realise now, that maybe I've just been used to not shouting loud enough in a flock of siblings. I've grown used to the feeling of people around me at all times, and I'm not at all looking forward to getting used to the emptiness. My moroseness has been helped further by reading Watermelon by Marian Keyes, I think. It's one of the books I decided to get rid of the other day, not because I don't like it. But because the one I had was in Norwegian. If I can, I always prefer to pick up a book in the original language, especially with UK-authors. The language is different somehow, there's tonnes of slang which I find you miss out of when you read a translated book. Anywho, Marian Keyes have a few books written within the same family-- The Walsh sisters. The Watermelon is about Claire Walsh, who I believe is the oldest? And although my family isn't as crazy as the Walsh family, I most definitely relate to it. I read the whole book today, the same day as my sister left. So it left me feeling a bit morose. Yesterday, I dragged Monchita along to carry bags of clothes for donation. Admittedly I didn't drag her along, only asked if she'd come along. And to her regret, she said yes. It was heavy lifting, and we both felt a bit like our arms had fallen off when we finally arrived. To be fair, the clothes that went for donation is 50% mine, 50% hers. So surely it was only fair to bring her along. Afterwards, she coughed her way home for a cuppa. I, however, went to take the bus to IKEA. Was in and out in 30 minutes, managed to hear a few couples argue. You know, the usual. I stopped by the library to pick up the Watermelon in english, before I ventured home and promptly cleaned my room. Then I sorted out my old storage boxes, and exchanged them with the new ones from IKEA. The white ones (picture numero two) are quite big, which makes for a lot more storage. I've got three of them, and in one there's all of my mugs and glasses. It is genuinely filled up, and I even got rid of a few. In another box is all of my "nice" shoes. The last box is a miscellaneous one, which I'm not entirely satisfied with. The boxes are a bit taller then the previous ones, so I can clearly see them. At the moment they feel a bit ominous, but I'm sure with time I'll forget about their existence. I sat down to chill a bit after I was done with organising, and then my sister came a' knocking. I got dressed, and off we went to the Oyster and Mars. It was suspiciously clean, and I was half a mind to ask why they'd cleaned when it was just us. However, they were actually getting "real" visitors, so I didn't ask. Oyster baked my mother's favourite pastry, and we played guessing games. It was kind of hilarious. We ended up in the basement, watching a movie, after we'd taken enough selfies and shared memes with each other. My battery was at 1% when we left the house, and saw a car take off like they were a part of a drag-race. Although it was a beautiful car and all, I thought the whole thing was tacky as hell. My phone died once I got home, and I left it until an hour ago now. It's nice to shut off from the world completely sometimes. It turns out that my lone visit to Lynx won't be so lone no more. She's planning to hold Volla's hen party the weekend I'm there, so Monchita also bought tickets for that weekend. The sisters will be reunited, I guess. I've been a part of surprising Volla once before, and it was lovely. Hopefully it'll be something along the lines this time around too. 

seen you from afar, wondered who you are

Det føles ut som om jeg har ryddet, kastet og organisert i alle eiendeler jeg har denne helgen. Har ihvertfall blitt kvitt mye unødvendige ting som bare har ligget og samlet støv. Det begynner å se bra ut, bare jeg slutter å kjøpe flere kjoler enn jeg trenger nå. Jeg er en kåpe-elsker, men jeg har i det minste viljestyrken til å begrense meg. Den er tydeligvis ikke-eksisterende når det gjelder kjoler. Våknet noe tidlig i dag, så det må bety at jeg er uthvilt. Jeg har rent sengetøy og et rent soverom. Jeg er nydusjet etter en treningsøkt, så jeg gleder meg til å legge meg i sengen. I går kveld leste jeg igjennom innleggene jeg skrev da jeg var på Indochina-reisen. Det var ganske artig, ettersom det nesten har gått i glemmeboken at jeg skrev noe særlig da. Er evig takknemlig for at jeg faktisk dokumenterte turen med ord og bilder. Og i går så kjente jeg virkelig lengsel tilbake til de to månedene. Det har antakeligvis noe med det kalde været for tiden. Januar er som regel en litt sånn mørk måned, hvor jeg helst vil at vinteren skal slutte. Men samtidig så vil jeg ikke endre på denne traurige tiden. Det skal sies at det dagdrømmes og drømmes om solstråler og basseng. I kveld har jeg sett litt på interiør-relaterte ting, og det lages ideèr inne i hjernen min for tiden. Å lakke tånegler har jeg ikke rukket denne gangen, men det skal forbli en prioritet, så fort jobb er ferdig for uken. Da er det mye som står på agendaen. 

I tried to buy your pretty heart, but the price too high

I dag har jeg bokstavelig talt kastet bort penger. Jeg våknet etter å ha sovet i ti strake timer, spiste en sen frokost som bestod av frokostblanding. Jeg så på videoer av folk som pakket i packing cubes, så jeg ble selvfølgelig inspirert til å organisere selv. Så jeg bestemte meg for å organisere oppbevaringsboksene jeg har over garderobeskapet. Har en minneboks hvor jeg har samlet opp masse sentimentale ting over årene, derav den avbildede bamsen. Den fikk bli, for jeg har gått igjennom flere opprydninger i den boksen, og den har alltids blitt igjen. Men jeg var ganske brutal med alt annet. Hadde en liten boks i den store boksen med gamle utgåtte mynter, og mynter fra verden rundt. Noen av de er selvfølgelig gyldige, men når skal jeg tilbake til Frankrike igjen? Eller Hong Kong? Orket ikke å sitte med en haug småmynter, så det gikk i søpla, selv om jeg får dårlig samvittighet for å kaste bort penger. Har faktisk kvittet meg med to bokser, og nå vil jeg egentlig kjøpe nye oppbevaringsbokser for å skape et mer uniformt utseende. Problemet er at jeg ikke finner noen jeg liker i den størrelsen jeg ønsker. Uansett er det ikke min største prioritet akkurat nå. Neste opprydningsprosjekt er vel bøkene mine. Apropos bøker-- jeg har enda ikke lest Lyrebird av Cecelia Ahern. Den ligger og ser fin ut, og dog jeg synes den virker spennende ut, så har jeg ikke klart å faktisk sette meg ned og begynne. Herregud, i går fant jeg drømmesofaen min. Har sett etter en sånn spesifikk sofa forever, og nå fant jeg den. Nå tror jeg faktisk at jeg skal begynne på middag, og forhåpentligvis får jeg tid til å lakke tåneglene i dag. Har fått i meg èn belgisk trøffel, og det kjennes egentlig nok ut.