Just tell me you love me. I'll give you what I need. I'll give you all of me, even though you don't love me

Yesterday I did a quiz about football, and I never watch football. It's a bit disconcerting, the things I do know about football. Strange. It's that time of the month, so yesterday my lower back was aching like hell. For a moment I thought I'd have to cancel my plans because the ache was more intense and more constant than it usually is. But after watching a clip from Glee and crying my eyes out (after Finn dies-- it's just so obvious that their sadness and heartbreak stems from the real loss), it sort of evaporated? It was a bit like magic. I spent yesterday at Oyster's, whom I've not seen in ages. We had a little catch up and I told them a bit about the wedding and whatnot. And now it seems like every time I'm there, we spend a little time reminiscing about the olden days-- like, Oyster, Mars, their mum and I will be sat at the dinner table and just chat about how things used to be. Oyster and I watched We're The Millers, and it was hilarious. I can only say one thing about it, and that's: you know what I'm saying? I didn't end up staying over at Oyster's because I didn't bring anything with me, and now I've also forgotten my travel toothbrush at Lynx and Grepper's so I've got to get myself a new one. I spent this morning going through all the Tumblr updates, and it's safe to say that I am really looking forward to the Where We Are tour right now. I'm just very excited, and I can't wait to see how the tour will evolve through the next months. I like attending a concert when I know the artist(s) have performed the songs a certain amount of times, because then I'll know they've gotten used to perform the songs. It looks like One Direction already looks a bit dishevelled, because I remember them starting the last tour with freshly cut hair and perfectly matching clothes and whatnot. And then it ended in tank tops and grown out hair and facial hair. I am a bit surprised by the song choices for the tour, and I'm not quite sure what I think yet. And I am still waiting to see high quality videos of the performances, so I can't really put a judgement on it so far. Today I plan on spending my day out in the nice weather. Hopefully I'll get some sun on my body that's not necessarily my forehead, which is where I naturally tan the most. But before I go outside, I need to be good and do some school work. I'm not awfully behind on school work, but I'd be happier if I'd done it already. Have a super nice day xx. 

I left my girl back home, I don't love her no more and she'll never fucking know that

Hellooooooo. I hate days like these when I'm soooo unproductive. Admittedly, I only slept five hours last night, and the last few nights aren't anything worth boasting about either. It's for a reason though, I've been cramming as much school work as possible within the past days. I managed to be really effective when I needed it the most, and though I don't especially like being stressed like that, it was a nice trial in relation to my upcoming exam. It's not done just yet, still have to write-- well, try to finish writing my second paper, which should be done within Friday. But that's nothing compared to the first paper. I had one of those days where I spend half my day in "praksis" and the other half at school. It was rather stressing, seeing as I had very little time to get my arse in to school. And of course I managed to walk the wrong way from the train platform??? I've literally not done that in years. I was just too busy walking, rather than looking at the signs, so yeah, but at least I had another scenery, and I walked through a lovely park. So yes, positive aspects with everything. But it did make me five minutes late, which forced me to try discreetly eating my lunch. But it was fine anyway, and we had rather nice discussions. And as per usual, some of us waggle our eyebrows at each other and try to stifle our giggles. And who knows if we're even thinking about the same things. I was invited to a secret Facebook group by one of the people in this little study group we are obligated to meet up in. And I didn't recognize the other users in the group, and there's literally only ten people, so I was really confused. Nor did it have a description, and the first comment that I saw was "It's alright with 1600 words? +- 20%". And it didn't make any sense to me. So basically I thought it was some kind of big mistake that I'd been invited and that they had some kind of odd writing club?? After scrolling down a bit, I did eventually realise that the other users were also my classmates, and that this was a secret group for the people in our "praksis" group. I have moments when I'm smart, but I also have loads of moments where I'm really stupid. Speaking of, we had to present one of our previous logs-- as in when you write about an experience-- and I explained mine. And it was like eerily silent after that, before my teacher cut the silence with "err, yes, that's right". And I was thinking "oh bloody hell I've made a fool out of myself, and no one understood what I was speaking about, not even my teacher". But I got J.D.'s version of it later when we were discussing out paper later in the cafeteria. And he said that during the silence after my explanation of my log, he really wanted to do one of those slow clapping moments, and oh god, I literally cackled, because of course J.D. would have that idea. It's always funny speaking with J.D., because he's got the weirdest imagination ever. Also, back to the school meeting-- never before today have I ever seen a student sipping liquor hidden inside a plastic back. It might just be one of the funniest things I've ever seen. Not to mention the most screwed up thing too. I keep forgetting not to take the train when it's rush hour, and I don't realise until I've walked to the platform and there's literally milling around with people. Sugar says she hates the bus, but I feel the same against trains during rush hour. Bahh, and whilst standing in a little closed off corner in the train, I realised that this would again be my life when "praksis" is over. When I got home I was surprised to see a new front door. Goodness gracious, things change in this house constantly. Alright, I have to go eat now, then do a bit of exercising and then I'm going to have a nice shower. I'd hope to go to bed early tonight, but I have a feeling I won't. 

Bring your love baby, I can bring my shame. Bring the drugs baby, I can bring my pain. I got my heart right here, I got my scars right here

Hiya, I'm currently procrastinating, so I figured I'd write something. I started crying just now, just like, out of nowhere, and I thought I'd gone mental. Turns out I'd just gotten a bit of my makeup remover in my eyes, and my eyes were just getting rid of it through tears. I was dead tired when I woke up at 6:00 am today. Felt like I'd barely slept for ten minutes before I had to go in to "praksis" again. That's the worst thing about having an early shift right after a late shift-- it really does feel like you've been working for 24 hours. But goodness, there are so many precious old people. And they're so nice. Like, I got the most nice speech from this old man that hoped that life would treat me good and that I'd find a man that would treat me properly and be thankful for me. I also got to accompany my nurse supervisor at a visit where we probably stayed for an hour. And we had a really emotional conversation with this lady, and I should tell you that "emotional" and "tired" doesn't go well together. There was a point where I thought I'd cry, but luckily I didn't. I've got the day off tomorrow, which, to be honest it's not really "a day off". I'm probably going to be dragging my hair out in frustration. I can tell now that I'll regret spending the time I've spent on writing this little blogpost instead of school work. I know I'll manage, it's just the way to managing. I was just sipping my tea and looking at the tree outside my window a few hours ago, and I decided to take a picture. Yellow leaves and tea-- really screams autumn. I've literally been watching the tree progress from bright green to this yellow. Oh, I made a playlist yesterday called "sedated", and if you like Drake and The Weeknd, you'll probably like it (always a link, innit?). Bahh, I'm really knackered, so I might just go to bed early. Oh, I almost forgot-- due to my tiredness on Friday, I forgot to write about the Where We Are tour tickets. After a long, long time of discussing about tickets over Facebook and the phone, the kilo-gang are set to travel to Sweden next year. I can't bloody believe it, and it'll probably take me awhile before I get excited. You know, just because you've got the tickets, it doesn't actually mean it's going to happen. I sound like a spoil sport, but I'm just saying what I'm always saying-- life doesn't always go the way you've planned. But yes, once it's 2014, I might get a bit more excited. Well, once the new album comes in November maybe-- if I like the new album, that is. To be fair, I know more about the upcoming music of Justin Bieber than One Direction due to my belieber friend's Twitter. And who knows, I might actually really dislike the new music of One Direction. Alright I need to go to bed, because I might start crying because of how knackered I am.