we danced all night to the best song ever. We knew every line, now I can't remember how it goes but I know that I won't forget her

No, you don't have a bad eyesight (or you might). These are just very blurry pictures from yesterday. On Friday evening I decided to go to bed at 10:00 pm because I was quite knackered. And for the first time in years probably-- I slept 11 and 1/2 hours. To me that's quite crazy. These days it feels like I can barely sleep eight hours anymore. My body just wakes up. I'm guessing that my body has been drained by this past week. And it doesn't really surprise me either. Anyway, I woke up late, cleaned my bedroom (yes to removal of dust and clean sheets), exercised, had a shower, got ready, and went to take the bus. I went into town a bit early because I wanted to find a dress I've been looking for. I ended up empty handed, because no one had the dress. But as I was walking towards the underground, there was a busker who sang Lucy in The Sky With Diamonds. I paused my own music, choosing to listen to him whilst he strummed his guitar. It was just really lovely, and I looked up to the sky, which was when I noticed a girl in a blue gown on the top on Grand Hotel in a tower. I just thought it was perfect, and it made me smile. I arrived by the cinema a bit earlier than I had expected. And goodness, the embarrassment made me flush. Like, for each minute I could just feel my face flaming even more. But once Kiwi and my belieber friend arrived, it was better. For some reason, I don't think anyone thought about the fact that this was a movie premier-- like, the thought hadn't really swept by us. But there was a red carpet, and there was a speech at the beginning of the movie, and there were goodiebags. The fact that it's only aired this weekend should have given me a hint probably, but I keep forgetting that One Direction are actually quite popular around the world. Who would have known, huh? Anyway, I have mentioned that I'm not a huge concert movie fan. I did really enjoy This Is Us, because that wasn't a clean concert movie. But apart from the interview at the start, Where We Are is a pure concert movie. Like, it felt a bit like being at the concert again. My neighbour (not my belieber friend, but someone else) was squealing and crying and laughing-- she was experiencing all the emotions on the emotional spectre, it seemed like. I realised that she hadn't been to a concert from this tour, which is understandable as they didn't do a gig in Norway. I realised it because of her excitement when she realised the songs they were performing. Almost everyone decided to light their phones to Little Things and You & I, which is what people usually do during their concerts as well. It was rather ridiculous, but also left me a bit amused. "Where else would people do things like this?" I thought to myself. Remember the embarrassment I was feeling before going to the cinema? At one point during the movie, I thought: "goodness, how lovely to be at a place where people don't feel pressured to be stone faced and care about other people". And that's why I stood up to dance along to Best Song Ever at the end of the movie. And it felt exactly like the concert in Stockholm, because I did the exact same thing. My favourite part of the movie was probably when they were going to perform Right Now. Kiwi said that with this movie, you can sort of see the concert from the boys' perspective. And yeah, it was evident when they were awed by the crowd. Especially during Right Now, I thought-- when the fans somehow managed to do this. I definitely got goosebumps during that. It's like you can see how much it means to them by looking at their shocked faces. As you might know already, Niall is my favourite, so he's also included as a favourite in this movie. And I don't want to say it's because I love him-- it's because of his sheer excitement on the stage. He's just so pumped, and he looks (and feels) like he genuinely loves being on the stage. And it's just really evident to me when he's feeling overwhelmed and awed. It's like I can see when he's thinking "holy crap". I also liked the interview part where Louis and Zayn argues with Liam about the kidney story. And it's completely true! All this time, Liam has led the world to believe that he only had one kidney up until last year or so when it "magically healed". It was really nice to have Ben interview them, because he knows them personally. It automatically makes things better, because the atmosphere isn't as stiff as when it's with a random interviewer. Also, I really appreciated that he made the effort to ask all of them. Because when they're all doing an interview, more often than not you'll have some talking loads more than the others. The things I didn't like was that I couldn't just look at Niall all the time, ha. Also, I do wish they would have included more of their banter. But as I told my belieber friend: who watches two-hour long concert movies? It's probably a bit of a stupid question, because I'm pretty sure One Direction fans would love that. Oh, and there were quite a few songs they didn't include, like Better Than Words. But I've heard that it's supposed to be on the DVD, so I guess I'll have to get my hands on that too. We left a bit before the movie ended because we had booked dinner reservations at 8:00 pm. Marble and Sugar arrived shortly after us, and we all ordered some food. I had some pad thai and a Singha. We all chatted, caught up. I don't think we've all been assembled since forever? Maybe my birthday actually, if I'm not incorrect. We sat there with our drinks until 11:00 pm almost. It's my first actual drink since my birthday, because I've only been drinking beer since. Oh, that does remind me that my brother-in-law's brother-in-law recommended a brewery for me to visit. Anyway, we ended up walking to the train station in the rain, and only Sugar had been smart enough to bring with an umbrella. My belieber friend, Kiwi and Marble were suddenly poets, and making poems about rain. I told Sugar: "you've got crazy friends". I think it was especially punctuated by Kiwi screaming some gibberish after a group of boys/men? (everyone beneath the age of 26 seems to be boys to me). Anyway, I had a really good night with my friends, and it was needed. It was good for my soul. I was home just before midnight, and I went to bed straight away. Only, I couldn't really fall asleep. And that's how my night went-- I fell into a light slumber, woke up, fell asleep, woke up again, fell asleep, etcetera. When my alarm went off, it felt like I hadn't fallen asleep at all. Once I got to my "praksis" this morning at 7:25 am, there were no people there. And I was like "wait, is it winter time already?" because I've done that mistake a few times already. Luckily my supervisor arrived shortly after my train of thoughts. I was afraid that the day would be really busy, but I was completely wrong. It was even slower than Friday. I was genuinely asking my supervisor if there were any rooms that needed to be cleaned. A slow day plus me being a zombie does not go good together. My supervisor did actually tell me that I could go home at 1:00 pm, and I said "but what if it suddenly starts getting busy now?". "That's a chance you just have to take," she answered. And then there were two new patients, as if answering our calls for something to do. So I did end up staying until 3:30 pm as usual. Because it's Sunday, the buses doesn't drive as frequently. So when I realised I'd have to wait twenty minutes for the bus, I just thought there was no way I'd wait that long when I could just walk home. The only problem is that I was wearing my wool coat and my wellies. Wellies were a great choice this morning when the rain was pouring down, but not so great this afternoon when the sun was out. When I finally got home, I was exhausted, and I felt like I was about to fall asleep any second. Instead I ate, and probably filled my whole stomach to the point. I did this whilst going through my Tumblr and watching X Factor. I've come to realise that I'm quite behind the actual shows, because my dashboard on Tumblr was filled with pictures of Niall backstage with X Factor contestants yesterday, which must mean the live shows have started? The episode I watched today was the one where Louis has to choose six acts. And my goodness, what a bloody drama. It was even worse than when Cheryl had to choose. I was honestly gasping. Anyway, I thought the eight-member-boyband was surprisingly good. Hopefully they'll do well in the competition. I'm going to watch another episode this evening, then I'm going to sleep. Hopefully I'll manage to read some curriculum before then. Tomorrow is a new day, and I've got work. Then I've got the few last days of my "praksis", and goodness how I contemplated whether I shouldn't ask for a job or not today. My belieber friend told me a very good argument, I'm just not sure if it's good enough. Either way, I think I'll regret it a bit. 

I’m so encaptured, got me wrapped up in your touch

Hiya. It's been silent here because I didn't bring with my computer when I went to my sister's. And I was supposed to say on Tuesday, except Tuesday didn't go exactly like I wanted. That's a story for another day. I'm home now though, after taking the boat, the bus, the plane and the train. Dozed off at the plane, seeing as I only had six hours of sleep. I was quite surprised to see that the autumn has reached home as well. I unpacked the second I got home, and most have gone in the wash. Sadly I didn't get home with a new mug, which I'm a bit sad about. But at least I've saved money. My nephew was quite confused as to where I was going today, and he didn't want to go to kindergarten. I'm trying to do all the things I need to do before I go to "praksis". I'm currently blogging, eating and watching X Factor. So I'm sorry if this post is a bit all over the place. Oh dear, this X Factor episode is quite dramatic, I'm glad I'm not in Cheryl's position right now. I think it's really amusing how they use Ludovico as background music quite often. I am a bit sad about coming home as always, it's always bitter sweet. It's hard to go from the most wonderful nature to where I am now, which isn't all that pretty in my eyes. I kept feeling so amazed by the beauty of the nature on my way to the airport this morning. Imagine sunrise, pink skies, and everything mirrored in the sea. The beauty is indescribable. You must see it for yourself. I've not read one page of curriculum whilst I was gone. It was great for my health probably, but now I've got loads to do. Not to mention that the next two weeks are going to be crazily busy. Well, this week might be fine, I think. But I don't know about the next one. Luckily it'll be the last week of "praksis", which means I can relax a tiny bit. However, I'm due back to school right after, and there will be looong days with lectures. Ohh, I'm watching another episode of X Factor, this time Mel B is in charge, and she's brutal. But I really enjoy that, ha. I'm gonna go through Tumblr now, because One Direction had their last concert of the WWA Tour yesterday. Which does remind me that I'm going to see their concert movie this weekend. How suiting. Next weekend I'm going to watch The 1975 with Kiwi, and I can't wait. I'm crossing my fingers that none of them will turn ill. 

the only heaven I'll be sent to, is when I'm alone with you

Ah, went to listen to the Breakfast Show, only to realise it's Sunday. Yesterday I asked my teacher if my paper is due today or next Sunday. During my relaxing time, watching X Factor UK, she answered: "yes". Great. Couldn't be bothered to ask for a clarification, so I'm just going to finish it and send it off. I'm still a bit confused about how to write papers, it seems. And I can't say it feels like I'm giving it the best. However, my teacher hasn't commented on my papers thus far, so it's not like she's going to fail me? I don't know. X Factor was good yesterday, though I started coughing. Maybe I had too much chocolate. Oh well. As long as I can keep it somewhat under control today. I've got "praksis" today, which means I won't get to see X Factor today. But it's fine, I can watch it tomorrow. I'm a bit excited to see what "praksis" will be like tonight, seeing as I've heard it can get quite busy at Sundays. But I'm not hoping for a busy day, to be honest. Hope people have been good and that there are few injuries. Ah, there's only three days left until I leave, and I cannot wait. I started packing yesterday, and it always make me realise how my wardrobe mostly consists of the following colours: black, grey and blue. Things have just been so busy lately, which means I've also had a lot on my mind lately. Travelling to me, sort of means that I get to escape reality for just a bit. Means I have other things to think about, and I can think about other things with a good conscience. It's just going to be nice to take a breather. Also, I'm very excited because I think I might buy a new mug. Anyway, tomorrow Steal My Girl by One Direction is released around the world (except for the UK, which I think is bollocks. Goodness, it's where you're from One Direction). Can't wait to listen to the whole song, though I'm a bit worried I won't enjoy it. But that is essentially how I feel about all of their new song releases. I mean, there has been songs I've instantly hated, so, who knows. The Where We Are Tour is almost over. It'll be over when my holiday is over, actually. And I can't wait for them to start promo for their new album (and everything else). Right, it's 10:00 am, and I've yet to have my brekkie. I plan to finish my paper, have a shower and perhaps do some reading if I have enough time. Have a great Sunday. I hope you've made time for yourself to relax a bit and get ready for another week. 

One Direction, Where We Are Tour 2014, 14th of June, Solna

Before the concert. Whenever I go to a concert, I forget most of the show within an hour afterwards. Not because it's been boring, but because my brain doesn't memorize everything I see. However, I do remember a lot of feelings. This is the tale of my experience with the One Direction concert at Friends Arena on Saturday the 14th of June (and it's for my own sake that I write this down, so you can just ignore this blog post, because it's going to be hella long). As you might know, One Direction has quite a few younger fans, which I think is the reason for why they don't allow any alcohol. So we bought a bottle of vodka at the airport, and with me being a bartender, the ratio between alcohol and mixes (soda, energy drinks) weren't that huge. I got a few comments on the drinks being "strong". The whole kilo-gang was gathered in my belieber friend and I's hotel room, and we were listening to my belieber friend's One Direction playlist (or summat). Before this we had been at a MAC counter, because the girls were looking at make up. And the counter was playing One Direction songs in preparation for the concert, which was ace. It was very easy to differentiate the people who were fans (people who were singing along to the songs), and who were not. I had scrapped any wish to look good at their concert, and I went with a warm jumper and my Nike free runs. It's the best decision I've done in a while. After the drinks in our hotel room, we went to find a restaurant. I had some lovely noodles, which I've been craving since Sunday night. We got quite big servings, so when I was full, it still looked like I had just gotten a plate of noodles. We stopped by the hotel for a quick trip to the loo and whatnot, before we ventured on and tried to find our way to Friends Arena. We had an inkling of how we were going to get there, but not much more than that. The hardest thing about travelling to another country, is probably trying to understand their public transport. We ended up taking a sort of train, after my belieber friend and Sugar had been talking to some Swedish people. The great thing about One Direction concerts, is that their fans are so easy to pick out, so we just tried to follow the people who were fans. After walking for a few minutes after the train ride, we finally spotted the stadium, and it was huge. We went straight to the toilets, and then my belieber friend and I went to find our seats, whilst Kiwi and Sugar went to get us some drinks (which I ended up spilling at the end of the concert). My belieber friend and I were linked at our arms, and we stopped in front of the door that would open the way to our seats. I don't know why I remember this so distinctly, but maybe it was because I got ready mentally. I can't explain the levels of excitement I felt, once we opened that door and stepped outside to see the whole stadium. I was overwhelmed, anxious and just bewildered. It's honestly one of the most crazy sights I've ever seen. "I felt like the king on our national day," I said to my belieber friend sometime this weekend. I think this is one of the things I'll remember for a long long time. 

5SOS and the start of the concert. I was surprised to realise that out of all the songs during 5 Seconds of Summer's set, I had only listened to four of them. But once they did play the four of them, I couldn't help but sing along. They're really good, and they had quite a long set, so it felt like having an additional concert. And you would think they were the ones headlining, before the concert-- because almost all the music videos and commercials were about 5SOS. Anyway, they were all really good, and really fun too. It's my favourite thing I think-- seeing artists having fun on stage. After their set, there was another half an hour maybe with random music. One of the songs were of course Macarena, and the whole stadium started doing "the macarena". Kiwi, Sugar and my belieber friend were very enthusiastic. They sang the "heyyyy macarena" part in a very deep note, which made heads turn. It's one of the things I remember a lot, turning around to see my friends dancing like crazy, and looking like they were having a really awesome time. Before the concert, I didn't really have any expectations for the concert, and once the concert started, I was still quite "eh". But after the second song, when Kiss You started, I was sold. This song was actually one of my favourite performances at the last year's concert during the Take Me Home tour. Whenever I watch a video of One Direction, I watch it a lot of times in order to see what everyone's doing. However, when it's live, you have to choose what to focus on. So I spent almost the whole concert focused on Niall, because of obvious reasons. So it's almost like I was only watching a concert with Niall and not all of One Direction. I was watching videos from the concert yesterday, and I went like "oh, that's what he was wearing" about Harry, because I realised that I had almost not watched him at all.

Surprises and "crotch grab". The band played a bit of Mamma Mia by Abba, which the crowd loved. Because hello, what is more iconic (for Sweden) than Abba? It was really good because everyone were singing along, even after the boys (Liam, Niall and maybe Harry?) stopped singing along. It's one of my highlights actually. I loved watching them perform Right Now, because they're so on point with vocals on that song. And it's slowly becoming one of my favourite songs from the album. I especially love listening to the harmonies during the choruses. The only thing is that I think there was something wrong with Zayn's microphone, because I could barely hear his solo's during the whole concert. So when Niall did the backup singing at the first chorus of this song, you could almost only hear Niall. A wonderful surprise was when they performed Diana. It's not my favourite song, so I've never actually seen a video of them performing the song, so I was surprised to see how well they (Niall) performs the song. And I do remember myself screaming out the lyrics. It really is a catchy song. My belieber friend poked me in the ribs, and looked amused after Niall had done some hip thrusting in beat with the song. At least that's why I think she poked me. Niall is a delight to watch on stage, I think. And that might be biased, but I still think it's true. During Better Than Words, I don't think I ever looked away from him. I mean, of course I was going to watch him do his infamous "crotch grab" during his solo. I think maybe the screams went a lot louder then, but I didn't realise because: 1. I was in my own world. 2. My hearing was probably a bit damaged by then. People keep calling it a crotch grab, but I think it's more like pressing the heel of his hand against his crotch in a downwards motion. (I'm clearly invested in this, seeing as I have explained it in detail). It might be similar, but it's different. Like, it's more subtle? If he were to grab his crotch, to me; it would signalize indulging in pleasure. Whereas what he does signalises suppressing the pleasure? I don't know if this gives any meaning, but to me it does. My belieber friend pointed it out afterwards, saying something akin that it was hot. Whereas Kiwi had been looking at Harry's version of a "crotch grab". He does a similar motion, except upwards, and it's just a lot more different. Niall actually looks down during his "crotch grab", which amplifies the signal of suppressing pleasure, and like the motion is something private. Whereas Harry looks at the crowd while he does it, and he almost always drags his shirt/t-shirt/jumper up slightly-- he's such a tease. He'd be a good stripper, probably. Oh god, now I can't stop picturing Harry standing by a pole half naked with a tiny pair of pants (or boxers as Americans says), with one of his big hats, and his glitter boots.

The blonde one. Something I remember very clearly is watching Niall being very smile-y. Though I preferred looking at the boys instead of the screens, I'd sometimes look at the screen. One time it was Zayn's solo, and he looked so serious. And in the background, Niall walked past with a grin plastered on his face, probably smiling at something Louis had said or done. When I say Niall is a delight to watch, it's because of his enthusiasm and it's easy to see how much he genuinely enjoys being on stage. He's not afraid to make a fool out of himself, and he dances along to their songs. He jumps around, and he hangs with the guitarists when they do guitar solos. I love One Direction, but I don't think anyone loves One Direction more than Niall. If he'd have his way, they'd be doing this until they turn fifty. When they were in Glasgow, doing Radio 1's Big Weekend, they did a interview with Scott Mills which turned into a mini documentary thing. Liam was just talking about how Glasgow was important to them because it was where they did their first gig, when Niall comes to sit beside Liam. And Liam asks Niall what the venue of their first gig was named., which Niall of course remembers the name of. In addition he remembers in details how it looked like. My friends commented on how the crowd screams a lot for Niall. It's funny because they said the exact same thing last year too. I don't know exactly why, but I think it's a thing in the fandom. The fans used to be really worried about Niall feeling under appreciated (this is like back in 2011- early 2012?). So I think they felt a need to make him feel appreciated, and they did that by screaming whenever he sang his solos. I'm not sure if this is still a reason for it. It's a thing that has lingered, I think, and you can hear it whenever they sing some of their old songs like Moments. But there's also a lot of screaming for him during the new songs, so it might just be because he's a lot of people's favourite. Even the people who has other favourites also enjoys a bit of Niall. I'm glad I was sat at the side we were sat, because I think Niall was turned toward us quite a bit. Especially when they were on that little stage that seemingly grows up from the ground. I spent a lot of time grinning and waving when he was waving at the crowds on our side. Also, when they sing Little Things, he always end up singing the last bit of his solo straight at the camera. And so if you watch the screen, it looks a bit like he's looking at you. Gave me the shivers, I tell you. Also, yes please to Niall in skinny jeans showing off his tiny legs, and yes please to Niall with electric guitars. Apart from the fact that I think he looked attractive, I also think he sounded great. I think Niall is great. And I'm pretty sure I said that to my belieber friend when we were in bed. I'm pretty sure I've said that to everyone, actually. 

The aftermath. The line out of the stadium was ridiculous. As it should be with little organising and approximately 60k people trying to get home at the same time. Outside the stadium there were a lot of parents waiting for their kids to meet them. That's good, but they were all blocking most of the way to the train, so we had to try getting past them all. Once we finally got to the train station, we didn't bother with buying tickets, because the lines were never ending. The problem was that we needed tickets in order to get through these automatic doors. What happened, is that Sugar followed this girl through the automatic doors. And then Kiwi, my belieber friend and I was stood wondering what we were supposed to do. Kiwi took a hold of my belieber friend's hand, and she held mine, and then she followed another person through the automatic doors. Then once we got to the trains, there were loads of people milling about, and people trying to get on the train. I said it was twenty minutes until the next train would arrive, which prompted Sugar's need to get on the train currently at the platform. She waits enough for trains at home, so I think it was instinct for her to move quickly. My belieber friend and I started jogging towards the train, when the guards(?) said we had to hurry up and get further towards the front of the train. All of a sudden Sugar and Kiwi started running like maniacs. And we were all holding hands, which means we were all running like crazy through crowds of people. Once we got on a carriage, I said that it felt a bit like an apocalypse, or Titanic. It felt like Sugar and Kiwi were Rose, and I was Jack. Save yourself. It's one of those things I'll remember probably for a long time too. 

Afterthoughts. The whole show was actually a bit more organised than I thought, and I did actually see traces of choreography. It was smart for some of the lads to be on stage and talk whilst the others were getting changed, or going to the loo. Or when Niall was gearing up to play guitar. I'm not going to lie and say that I think this concert surpassed the experience of my first concert, but I think it would be really hard to surpass it due to a few reasons. It was my first concert with them, which means my excitement level was through the roof. Plus, I feel like last year was my biggest year of being a fan of them? However, I don't want to say that this concert was worse than the last years because I enjoyed this one in a completely different way. It's hard to explain, and I'm not sure if I can. But I have loved seeing One Direction the two times I have, and I would love to see them a hundred times more. They're always a delight to watch, and with a One Direction crowd, you are allowed to yell, shout, and be as crazy as you want. And acting that way is viewed as normal. We did get a few looks from people, but they were mostly parents, and one in particular was more amused than anything. Kiwi pointed out to me that they hadn't done any Instagram questions, and I hadn't even realised. I don't think they've done them since they were in Dublin, actually. It's sad that they've decided to cut that part out, because I love the banter between them whenever they're answering strange and random questions. But I guess it's also a good thing? Because that must mean that they want to focus more on their music. I'm not quite sure why they cut it out though. I regret not taking more than one video, but at the same time I think I would regret taking videos. Because then I would want to have videos that would capture the boys all the time, which means I'd have to look at the boys through my camera lens, and I wouldn't be able to sing along as loudly because I obviously don't want the audio of the video to be me. And all of this would just ruin a lot of the experience of being on a One Direction concert, which doesn't happen to me every day. The few downsides at the concert was the thing about Zayn's microphone, and that Harry wasn't on top with his vocals. The latter has been struggling for a week or so now, because he almost lost his voice last week, if I'm not wrong. But other than that, I had such an amazing time-- I don't think it could have been better actually. Now I just want to rewind and experience it all over again, because it was so much fun. (Sigh, I'm having a post-travel depression). 

I like the way you smile with your eyes

I'm in a weird mood of over excitement. It happens sometimes when I'm overly happy. This picture kind of sums up my day. Apart from the sky, it's been a very blue day. I wore these shorts this morning as I had a bit of a drive through town with my dad. With my sister gone this weekend, my dad has not stopped waking me up each morning. "C'mon, wake up, we're going for a drive today". When I got home, I finished rereading a fanfiction, before I went to clean my bedroom and change the sheets. Once I was done, I changed shorts and wore my shirt to sit outside in order to read How To Fall in Love by Cecelia Ahern. I've been struggling to finish it all week, but I only had to get past fifty pages until I was hooked. I picked up the book when I was looking through the shelves at my local library last Sunday. I've read a lot of books by Ahern, so I'm very familiar with her work. What I probably enjoy the most, is how she describes Ireland. It's why I also love Marian Keyes. They're sort of similar the two of them, and they both use the Irish culture and places in Ireland actively in their work. And it's how I fell in love with Ireland, actually. It was a very funny book, and I could definitely relate to the protagonist. One of the reasons for my strange mood, is because I had one of those realisations dawning on me-- next week I'm going to see One Direction (that is if nothing goes wrong). My quickened breathing was for once not because of my exercise routine, but because I had a bit of a freak out whilst doing the plank. Shit, I'm, what?? I'm seeing One Direction like next week. That's what?? Oh my god. The words in italic were my thoughts, if that was not obvious already. Speaking of One Direction and exercise; one of the songs in my jogging playlist is Everything About You by One Direction. It's an oldie from their first album, but I really love it. It puts a smile on my face, and who would deny themselves a smile? Ugh, I really want to eat another of those sandwich ice creams, but I think they belong to my sister (insert ice cream emoji's here). Anyway, have a good night's sleep x.  

running after you is like chasing the clouds

It's Juneeeeeeeee! I am up bright and early because I wanted to listen to Grimmy whilst having a nice and calming breakfast. This (pictures) was my breakfast a few days ago-- I do love me some avocado. I've just listened to Niall doing the You & I chorus because Harry was sick. I think it's a bit amusing, because Niall is like the go-to substitute when someone's sick. It's not even a joke. He's even been a substitute for Zayn! But I guess he's sort of versatile. I've also just watched a man dancing like crazy to Through The Dark at the concert. It was both amusing and a bit heart warming, because he was dancing with people who I assume were his friends. And it just looked like a lot of fun. It's only twelve days left until I'm going to see the concert. And though it is One Direction, my excitement level isn't very high. I think it's because I have a feeling it won't be as good as last years. And I honestly don't think it will. Only time will tell, I suppose., because my last years expectations were exceeded. Anyway, my brother is coming home tomorrow, I think. It's nice, because I think he's finished his studies, and he'll probably move to the area. That is if he doesn't completely surprise us and moves to Japan or summat. Or, well, I wouldn't exactly have been that surprised. But it'll be good to have him back home, and it's not long until Volla comes down for a short visit. So that will be really nice. Yesterday's handball match ended with a win for Flesburg, which I realised might have been the underdog? It was a really good game, and really tense. It's my favourite kind. This week I'm learning basic knowledge about road traffic, so that's sort of school? Strangely enough, I'm sort of looking forward to it. Don't know whether that is a good sign or not, ha. I'm going to catch up on some Youtube videos now, whilst I have time. Have a nice Monday everyone! 

favourite performances from the where we are tour

Last year I did this thing where I wrote about my favourite performances of the Take Me Home tour. I looked through the post the other day (maybe a week ago? Whenever I don't remember the day, I use the phrase "the other day"), and decided that I should do it for this year too. There are a few things that I don't like about the Where We Are tour though, so here's a list. 1. Although the stage is bigger for the WWA tour, I actually miss the TMH tour stage. I personally think it looked more impressive with the huge see through stairs and the flying plank(??). A slight update-- the stage was different in Croke Park, Dublin. It seemed even bigger (probably because the stadium is bigger), and a bit like a maze to be honest. I still like the TMH stage better though. Regardless for the bigger stage, I don't think they've been very good at utilizing the space. 2. I strangely miss the sense of something akin choreography. Maybe it's just me and my need for structure, but it's something I actually long for. I think their choreographer has loosened the ties a bit too much, because removing almost all sense of choreography also removes the performance aspect. However, I haven't really got a overview of all the performances (haven't actually seen performances of all the songs), so I can't really say much about it. And I know there's a bit choreography in some of the performances, so my argument is maybe invalid? 3. Another thing I miss is a cover song. They don't have any cover song at all. So they went from covering loads of songs on the Up All Night tour, to one at the TMH tour, and then none this tour. I think it's a bit sad, especially since I loved Teenage Dirtbag. And that my friend, was all of my complaints about the WWA tour thus far. What I am happy about is probably the lack of fire by the stage, because Harry is a proper klutz's, and he very nearly walked straight into the fire twice (if not more). We don't want no burn injuries. Also, there's fireworks! This blogpost will most likely be updated as well, seeing as the tour is only one month in. Next up are my favourite performances.

Better Than Words. I'm really not keen on the chorus of this song, but I do enjoy the verses. My main reason for enjoying this performance is because of Liam, Harry and Niall. For some reason they become very enthusiastic in this performance, and very dance-y. Well, I'm not sure if I can categorize Harry's flailing limbs as dancing, but in a Harry "world" it probably is. My favourite part of this song is of course Niall's solo. And that's before the crotch grab thing happened too.

Strong. Everything about Zayn's voice is a favourite of mine in general, but my goodness. His solo before Niall's bridge is so lovely. That's it. That's the only reason why I really enjoy this performance, and most of the others too, because I just really love Zayn's voice. There's a few rumours going around that the new CD (of course they're making a new CD-- it's probably soon finished, and will probably be released in November some time) will contain a song with Zayn rapping? I am all in for that, man. I'm all in for Zayn singing me lullabies with ad libs.

You & I. Sometimes I'll listen to this song when I'm tired and it's late, and the voices will be really soothing. I really dislike the music video, and have tried to avoid it like a plaque. I can't even tell you how many times I've complained about it to Kiwi. I do however love the song, and it's maybe my favourite performance. And that's due to three things: 1. The Niam (Niall and Liam) harmonies during Zayn and Louis' verses. 2. Zayn's high notes (I really enjoy it when he mixes it up a bit). 3. When the whole crowd sings along. First time they performed this, I think-- Liam cried. I don't just enjoy Zayn's high notes, but also when he sings "we can make it if we try, you and I". It's strangely one of my favourite parts. I think I just really enjoy this song, and the vocals are so lovely.

Don't Forget Where You Belong. This is a favourite mostly because of emotional reasons. Whereas all of the other boys wrote songs about love, Niall wrote this song with McFly (one of the many boybands Niall likes to hang out with, ha). It's basically a song about not forgetting your roots, and about keeping "grounded". And I think that the song is one for the boys: "If you ever feel alone–don't. You were never on your own". Like, they spend so much time travelling, being so far from what they call "home", but they spend all that time travelling with each other. So in some ways they are each others home. When asked about which song they related the most to, all of them except Liam answered this one. I think especially the performance of the first night at Croke Park was amazing. Because, well, Niall was at home in Ireland, singing this song about not forgetting your roots.

Best Song Ever. In their movie This Is Us, they're all sat by the fire, and Louis says: "You know what it would just be amazing to be remembered, you know like a mum telling a daughter ‘the boyband of my time, One Direction, they just had fun and they’re just normal guys but terrible, terrible dancers’". I don't know if it was the first time, or the second, or the third, or the hundred time I watched the music video for this song, when I realised one of the meanings behind it. In the bridge, Louis starts singing "you know I'll remember you" and "I know you'll remember me". During this, the music video shows clips of them during the Take Me Home tour. And then Zayn sings "I hope you'll remember how we danced". So albeit it's an upbeat song, it makes me quite sentimental. Because I will always think of an ending when I listen to this song: the end of the This Is Us movie, the end of each gig (it's their ending song), the end of One Direction. On a happier note, I really enjoy the "oh, oh, oh, yeah, yeah, yeah" part. Just because I enjoy it when they allow the crowd to sing along. 

You'll never know the endless nights, the rhyming of the rain. Or how it feels to fall behind and watch you call his name

At 11:00 pm yesterday, I was sat reading a new book (which is quite hilarious), whilst I was listening to Coldplay's set on Radio 1 Big Weekend. In the midst of it, I stopped my reading, because wait, is that? what? oh my god! Coldplay were doing a tiny cover of Best Song Ever by One Direction. And the whole crowd was singing along. My day had just been so great already, so it multiplied all my happy feelings. I am aware that Coldplay has done tiny covers of One Direction before as well, during their gigs. First time they did it was when Harry was there, which must have been ace, because Harry's always been such a big fan of Chris Martin. Prior to this, I had been cuddled up in the living room by myself with a cup of tea, some chocolate, my book and The Object of My Affection on the telly in the background. It reminded me of my younger self, when I had a telly in my bedroom-- and I'd watch all of these movies before going to bed. And this memory made me very happy, as well as I got to watch a bit of Pretty Woman too, which is one of my all time favourite movies. In addition to this, I've been so overwhelmed with all the emotions that comes along with watching One Direction playing Croke Park. The cheers and roars that rise whenever Niall has a solo, or when the camera is filming him-- it's amazing. And it's lovely how the other boys takes a step back and lets him have his moment. "Help me sing this one to Niall, alright?” Liam said before singing Don’t Forget Where You Belong at the first night at Croke Park. Louis said: "This is for Niall" in one of his speeches. And Harry had a speech about Niall himself. And it felt a bit like a concert dedicated for Niall. I spent most of Friday night crying because of all the emotions with seeing one of your favourite people being so loved and emotional. So there's been so many things that's made me happy the past few days, and it was just topped off with listening to Coldplay yesterday. It wasn't even the One Direction cover, but it was Coldplay themselves-- every gig I watch of them is amazing. And I could just picture myself standing in a green field in Glasgow surrounded with people chanting for Coldplay to do an encore. I love Coldplay, and I said to Oyster the other day: "I want to collect all their CD's". It's strange because I never thought Tumblr was a place you'd go to gain knowledge, but it's raised so much awareness in myself, that I am so grateful. My night yesterday was topped off by listening to Leave Your Lover by Sam Smith just before bed. The music video is gorgeous, and the song itself is also gorgeous. It makes me so happy that I discovered Sam Smith, because he is amazing. His album is released tomorrow I think, and I would have grabbed it if I had the money. But because I'm broke, it'll be a bit of time before I can get my hands on it. I hope you have a splendid Sunday. I know for certain that I'll really enjoy this day, despite the rain and grey skies. Appreciate life, educate yourself about your own rights, and always question everything. Try to lift your head up from the ground, and see all the things you never normally notice. 

It's about 1280 km from my house to Croke Park. But my body is tense and excited, like I would be at Croke Park right now. I've gotten really emotional, and it seems like this will be a very tearful evening (might be a tearful weekend). I was watching the Up All Night Live DVD the other day, and it was such a strange sight to see how much they've grown and changed. Thing is, Ireland is a very proud country? They love their fellow Irishmen. And Niall, who has succeeded like nobody would ever believe, and who is a genuinely good lad-- who better could you wish for to represent your country? And now he's performing in Croke Park, which has been his dream. It's where he spent a lot of his childhood watching football, and it's where he went to audition for The X Factor. And now he's there playing another date on their stadium tour. It's funny, because someone once wrote that he should perform at Croke Park to him on Twitter, and he replied that they'd never sell out Croke Park. I'm just going to put a quote here: "It’s not just that these three shows are the biggest of the tour, or that it’s the kick off of the European leg, or even that most of their families are coming to watch them play. There are so many reasons why tonight is going to be very special for this band and their fans worldwide. The reason this performance is the pinnacle of human experience, though, that’s because Ireland knows, they know, and have taught the rest of us in kind, that they chose an idol worth supporting. Have you ever heard a bad word said about Niall Horan? Do people in the streets of Mullingar not honk and shout their hellos when he’s just walking along the street? Does Niall ever speak to anyone, fan or interviewer or heads of state, like anything other than an equal, a friend? As Louis said in TIU, Niall Horan is the heart and soul of this band, and if you try to tell me that the world hasn’t been waiting for this night to show him just how important he is, how much we all love him, then you can get out of my life because I don’t need that kind of lying negativity" (1). My goodness, I love Niall Horan.  

when the stars are the only things we share, will you be there?

My sister gave this chocolate egg to me this morning, whilst I was still in bed. I was chuffed, because chocolate. Apart from that I've read far too many fan fictions today. One about werewolves too, which is a bit too far from my comfort zone, because I'm not very into fantasy. And all wolf-related things doesn't really appeal to me. But it was good, and I've bookmarked it. The leaves on the tree outside my window is finally turning into the right green colour-- it's been looking a bit too yellow-y considering it's May. I told my sister about this, and I ended up saying: "so that's what I do these days, I observe trees". Speaking of trees, my mum almost cut down a whole tree today. I was a bit surprised when I walked past the window in the kitchen and saw all the branches on the grass. I've been reading about methods in research today; a lot about surveys and construction of questions. I didn't finish my school work yesterday, which is why I'm doing it now. It's not too bad, seeing as I actually think method is strangely interesting. It might have something to do with the book too though, because it's very straightforward. My goodness, yesterday I watched Essiebutton's newest vlog, and they went to see Grand Designs live. I ranted about this to Monchita, and I said "they really are my soul mates". It gives me hope that I'm not the only person who enjoys architecture, Grand Designs and Kevin McCloud. I went through my "favourite performances from the take me home tour" blogpost yesterday, and decided I should do it for the Where We Are tour as well. I'll probably write it in two weeks, when I'm done with the paper. Today I am going to watch the Eurovision final-- in three hours actually. I'm looking forward to snuggle up in front of the telly with some chocolate. Have a nice Saturday xx.

Best I ever had, hips don't lie. You make me wanna .. one more night

In order to create, we must destroy. Is that not the strangest thing you've heard? An oxymoron that shouldn't make sense, but does. I usually think to myself with a sigh that human race have destroyed so many things. But I've forgotten to take all the things we've created in consideration. I was lying in bed most of the day yesterday because I was so knackered. I don't feel much better today seeing as I had a very tiring meeting with my teacher. I've learned how to nod convincingly without actually listening to her. In two weeks we're presenting our paper, and I hope we'll be done by then because it's starting to tire me out. However, I know it could have been so much worse. I've had a bit of a talk with my mum about her trip a few hours ago. She got home yesterday but she was sort of really tired. She told me she almost missed her plane because she had gone to the wrong gate. And in reply I told her about that time Sugar and I almost missed our plane. Whenever I fly now, I almost always have a nightmare of missing my plane a few days before I'm leaving. Anyway, I've just been watching Sweat The Small Stuff, because well-- my love for Nick Grimshaw is just growing each day. But it's hilarious, and I'll never forget the episode where that girl says she's had saucy dreams about him, and he's like "ewww" because he doesn't actually fancy women. Right now I'm watching videos of the Where We Are Tour, and although I don't necessarily love Better Than Words, I do really enjoy the performance. They (Niall, Liam and Harry) are so enthusiastic in this performance, like they really enjoy the tune and dance their little awkward dance moves (or, well, to be fair Liam is probably the best dancer in their group, and he's actually quite good. Niall isn't too bad either. Harry, well, he's Harry). Well, mostly I've just been watching Niall, because most people put their cameras on him during this performance. And it might have something to do with this obscene gesture. Oh how the crowds scream! I will probably too (in five weeks????). Sleep tight, I'll have a busy time schedule tomorrow, so I need to get some rest. 

fire up that loud, another round of shots

Bollocks, I woke up at 6:30 am today, despite deciding that I was going to sleep in today. I was just wide awake, which probably was in relation to my nightmare? about living during the post apocalypse. It was terrifying walking around being scared for my life at all times. And that makes me think of people who are actually in that kind of situation, and it makes me so sad that some people have to endure that. And it also makes me extremely grateful for my own life. My early wake up might have had a relation to nerves as well. Or something else, who knows? I don't know all the ins and outs of my own body and mind, sadly. But despite the early wake up, I felt wide awake, so I already had my brekkie by 7:30 am. And then I've just been listening to Grimmy. I actually managed to cross off everything except for one thing on my "to do" list yesterday. One of the things was to make a new time schedule to hang over my desk. I've found that I become so lost without one-- before making the schedule, I couldn't remember which date or day it was. I was convinced that it was Saturday. But now it's up above my desk, and I've gained control over my life again, ha. There is always a certain risk when you're about to watch a video of One Direction performing a song. Wise people would probably mute the sound, or keep it low. Because it might sound perfectly good at the start, and you'll hear the boys singing clear. But unexpectedly, at one point (or a thousand) there will most likely be a scream. And it might just break your eardrums. I've found that one of my favourite performances from the Where We Are Tour is You & I, because of the second verses where Liam and Niall harmonises with Zayn first, and then Louis. I love harmonies. It's just so nice. And god, Zayn's high notes in that song, it gets me every time. I've also learnt to associate Best Song Ever with a bit of sadness, because I've come to associate it with endings. I think it's their end song for their tour, and then it's the end song for the This Is Us film. Speaking of films and One Direction-- I am 90% sure they are filming another one right now. I had a few things to do this morning, very close to my old high school. It's always so strange to me to take the bus towards my old school, and it brings me loads of memories. Anyway, when I got off the bus, there was suddenly a ball flying over the fence and towards the road. I managed to stop the ball, and kick it the other way. So luckily my reflexes kicked (ha, pun) in from having played so much footie in my childhood. All the kids came sprinting to the fence and shouted "thanks! can you throw it over here?". And so I did. I'm going to count it as my good deed. Today I might actually find some time to read a bit of curriculum, because I actually want to. And then I'll try to do the last thing on my "to do" list. 

With each year, our color fades. Slowly, our paint chips away. But we will find the strength and the nerve it takes to repaint and repaint and repaint every day

It's May! Where on earth did the time go? I am so glad One Direction doesn't have gigs every day, because I don't think I could have coped with being overwhelmed with new videos all the time. Niall has really taken to the skinny jeans, and sometimes he looks like a replica of one of the 5SOS boys. In some of the videos I've watched for the past week, Niall will be playing his acoustic guitar or electric guitar, and he'll stand with the band. Whereas the other boys will be walking around on the stage towards the fans. And it's so amusing to me, because it makes him look more like he belongs with the band than the boys. I'd love it if he actually played a song with 5SOS because he'd fit right in. And it's not like Niall isn't their biggest fangirl. Thank goodness for Liam Payne and his Instagram. Now, they all have an Instagram each, though Zayn's is secret (but not so secret because most knows the name), Louis posts something each six months or so, Harry is a serial-poster and then he goes away for two months or so, and well Niall does post somewhat regularly. But Liam, he's been posting loads. It's just the best thing ever. Oh god, I know that One Direction and other famous people probably knows about fan fictions and what they usually contain, but they almost never admit to knowing about them (for example Harry denying that he's ever read one in this interview). But Jon off of the One Direction band actually tweeted a link to a fan fiction he found. That's, oh goodness. Well, I actually just spent the morning reading a fan fiction I started on yesterday, and it was so good. I just can't wrap my head around how people can write so effortlessly? It's the kind of my favourite fictions, because it's comedy. Ah, the puns! I do love me some puns and bad jokes. Yesterday I made myself some food, which might look strange. It's salmon with bulgur, agaricus, asparagus and some mashed avocado. Basically all my favourite things to eat on one plate. That does remind me that I should probably get some breakfast, considering I've been up since 7:30 am (yawn (that was originally just to emphasise that I'm tired, not because I was going to yawn, but then I ended up yawning two seconds after I'd written it)). Bah, yesterday I accidentally managed to rip off some loose skin on my finger. And as I hissed at the burn afterwards, I couldn't help to sigh by my recent unluck with hurting my hands. First it was the blood blister I got just a few days before my sister's wedding, and then I also managed to get a little cut on my fist a few days later. And now this. My poor hands. And it's such an annoying place to get hurt, because you use your hands for everything. Gah, I am not going in the shower without a plaster on. No thanks, I don't want any more torturous stings when the soap seeps into my wound. Anyway, so I've obviously got statistics on my blog, and one shows the most viewed blog posts that day. And sometimes it's really old blog posts, and it gives me great amusement to click on it and read through them. Because I have been writing blogposts regularly for years now, which means I mostly don't remember all I've written. And sometimes I'll read something I've written before, and I'll think was that really me? (here is my blog on this exact date one year ago, two years ago, and three years ago). I'm going to do bits of school work today, maybe get some ahead start actually, so I won't have to get all too stressed this May. It's going to be a busy day, I think, just because I've got loads of small things to get finished. And it's always the small things that takes up more time than you think. Anyway, have a lovely day. Appreciate the wonders of having Internet and not living during an apocalypse. 

When I close my eyes I hear you singing. You're singing me a song that I'll forget. I always forget

It's like I'd almost forgotten the crazy frenzy that comes along with a new tour. Thank goodness I've not got an exam now, because all I've done for the past few days is running around the house in restlessness and shouting "I love One Direction". For once I didn't listen to Grimmy this morning, but I regretted it the second I got on Twitter and saw who was announced to perform at Radio 1 Big Weekend (a festival)-- One Direction is one amongst all the other amazing artists, despite the fact that they've already got a gig that day. But it's not like they've not done two shows in one day before. It really is an amazing line-up for the Big Weekend. Can you believe that the day One Direction is playing, there's also Bastille, Ed Sheeran and Coldplay (and more, but these are amongst my favourites) playing? I think I realised yesterday, that I am actually going to see One Direction again. I've been downplaying it for myself, because I know I'll barely see them with the seats I've got. Nevertheless, it never cease to amaze me, that I get to attend another of their concerts. I do remember watching videos of their first headlining tour-- Up All Night. It's strange that it's only a few years ago. And to think that I'm going to see a concert of theirs with some of my best friends, who I can't wait to spend time with. I was sat at the dinner table, eating with Monchita when I all of a sudden announced: "I am actually going to see One Direction in concert again". She just nodded along, long used to my strange ways. I am really thankful for these kind of things because I see how many that don't get to attend a concert of theirs. Oh god, I am actually watching "Ylvis' Top 20 Comedy Videos" on MTV Live, and now they're playing the music video for Best Song Ever by One Direction. I could swear they're everywhere, and that it's not just in my head. Liam got himself an Instagram yesterday to continue his picture spree that's been occurring for the past few days. I can't deal with this emotional roller coaster he seems to be on. He's so happy these days, and he cried during You & I at the first concert. Precious little babies. One of the neighbours definitely just chopped down a tree. That, or trees must be falling by their selves on this beautiful blue skied day April day. Tomorrow I've (finally) got school, and it'll feel like I'm actually doing something. Because right now it feels like the holidays have already started. On another note, I've been obsessed with the music video for Stay by Lewis Watson. You should watch it and report back if you don't think the ending is incredibly creepy. Because I've watched the videos so many times, I've also gotten the song on my mind. I think it's safe to say that I really enjoy watching dance choreography when I actually don't mind watching a commercial on Youtube because it's Kate Hudson dancing with some men. I just really think it's fascinating. It's also why I enjoy the music video for Hideaway by Kiesza so much as well. I actually have to stop the things I am doing just to watch it. I am so strange. Anyway, I've still got some school work I need to get done, so byeeeeeeee. 

right now I wish you were here with me

My mum has green fingers. From where, I don't know. Maybe she learnt how to deal with plants when she was younger and harvested sugar canes for a living. Or maybe it was when she was a stay at home mum and had some time over for herself to do whatever she wanted to do. Nevertheless, she has green fingers, and each spring our garden turns into a little oasis of colours. In that sense I am not my mothers daughter-- I don't know what kind of flower needs more water than the others, and I don't know the signs of them wilting, and I don't know what's best soil to plant them in. Today I've gone through the house and winced each time I pour water into another plant, guessing if it needs more than the one I watered in prior of this one. I've also cleaned my bedroom, cleaned the tables in the living room, and dusted. It does feel a bit like I am one of those housewives. Except this is not my house, nor am I a wife. I am wearing stripes on stripes, blue on green. Beneath is my favourite bikini I wore when I was outside trying to enjoy the sun. I've come to realisation that I cannot hide in my bed when the weather is as nice as it's been for the past week. So I spent some time outside reading, before I was too bored. I've applied nail varnish, which has been a pain in the arse because I hate opaque and slow drying varnishes, which is what I've dealt with today. I also spent my morning going through my Tumblr dashboard, because once a tour starts, the updates are never ending. So I watched a few videos from the first concert, and I grinned unconsciously until I felt the ache in my cheeks. And I nearly started crying a few times because Zayn's riffs are amazing. And sometimes I catch myself in holding my breath when I watch videos of them, and I don't know why I do it. I actually spent last night watching the This Is Us DVD, sort of like a preparation and a reminder of what their tours are like. I am glad that they don't have as many dates this time around, and that they don't necessarily have a gig each day, or multiple times a day like they did last tour. Hopefully they'll get to explore the world this time, not just travelling from place to place. I really really have to do school work today. I simply cannot procrastinate any more. I hope you've had a great day. 

Just tell me you love me. I'll give you what I need. I'll give you all of me, even though you don't love me

Yesterday I did a quiz about football, and I never watch football. It's a bit disconcerting, the things I do know about football. Strange. It's that time of the month, so yesterday my lower back was aching like hell. For a moment I thought I'd have to cancel my plans because the ache was more intense and more constant than it usually is. But after watching a clip from Glee and crying my eyes out (after Finn dies-- it's just so obvious that their sadness and heartbreak stems from the real loss), it sort of evaporated? It was a bit like magic. I spent yesterday at Oyster's, whom I've not seen in ages. We had a little catch up and I told them a bit about the wedding and whatnot. And now it seems like every time I'm there, we spend a little time reminiscing about the olden days-- like, Oyster, Mars, their mum and I will be sat at the dinner table and just chat about how things used to be. Oyster and I watched We're The Millers, and it was hilarious. I can only say one thing about it, and that's: you know what I'm saying? I didn't end up staying over at Oyster's because I didn't bring anything with me, and now I've also forgotten my travel toothbrush at Lynx and Grepper's so I've got to get myself a new one. I spent this morning going through all the Tumblr updates, and it's safe to say that I am really looking forward to the Where We Are tour right now. I'm just very excited, and I can't wait to see how the tour will evolve through the next months. I like attending a concert when I know the artist(s) have performed the songs a certain amount of times, because then I'll know they've gotten used to perform the songs. It looks like One Direction already looks a bit dishevelled, because I remember them starting the last tour with freshly cut hair and perfectly matching clothes and whatnot. And then it ended in tank tops and grown out hair and facial hair. I am a bit surprised by the song choices for the tour, and I'm not quite sure what I think yet. And I am still waiting to see high quality videos of the performances, so I can't really put a judgement on it so far. Today I plan on spending my day out in the nice weather. Hopefully I'll get some sun on my body that's not necessarily my forehead, which is where I naturally tan the most. But before I go outside, I need to be good and do some school work. I'm not awfully behind on school work, but I'd be happier if I'd done it already. Have a super nice day xx.