Don't be a fool to wait on me darlin'. I know that you don't wanna hear this, but I'm always on the move

Woke up a bit more rested this morning, though I did slumber a bit and wake up at times. Just got a few more hours of actual sleep, which was good. I had a very embarrassing dream about getting my heart broken by Nick Jonas on a private cruise I somehow climbed. He was obviously there with someone else, and committed to that person, although he tried to be kind in "letting me down". It was kind of hilarious. My Clue-app kindly reminded me that my cycle would start today, and for the first time it's been spot on. I kind of knew it yesterday, that my period would either show up over night or when I woke up. It's been more typical for me this time around. Although there's been a constant ache as my uterus tries to squeeze every ounce of blood out, I have also gotten relief. I did go to the mall once the ache was at it's worst. Movement always seems to help me, so that was good. Also, distractions from pain is good too. I picked up Christmas presents for my nephews, and then I went to pick up a package from the post office. The line was nearly out the door, and I had to snort when I saw it. I got one of my regular cashiers when I got to the front of the line, so I didn't have to give my I.D. It amuses me every time. I'm officially done with three presents. Only a lot to go, but still. I could have been done with quite a few more if I'd just have known what people wished for. Teen Wolf is still very enjoyable, and I got so loud once, my mum came asking what was going on. I'm really curious as to what'll happen this season, what will be the end result, because it got a bit (more) confusing with the newest episode. My plan was to put up the Christmas tree and decorate it tomorrow, but I won't be home during the day. It'll be dark within the time I get home, so it'll probably have to wait till Friday just because I want to decorate when it's bright. Maybe I'll just put the tree up tomorrow. Guess I could've done it today, but I had other plans today, and I didn't want to rearrange them. Don't Be a Fool by Shawn Mendes is a really good song. I really enjoy the message of the song, and the sound. It's really good, and it makes me want to sway. 

I tried to write it down, but I could never find a pen

Pretty sure I jinxed myself, because I got about no sleep this night either. At 4.30 am I was just thinking "well, do I give up or what?". I think I had at least two hours of sleep, because I figure my body has some preservation skills, and did the bare minimum. It's annoying, because it does kind of kill my plans today as well. I was really tired yesterday, until I was going to sleep. It's fair to say that my circadian rhythm is fucked. If this keeps up, I'm sure I'll become a zombie, which will be interesting. After I brushed my teeth, I sat down, and I immediately thought "have I brushed my teeth?". It's deffo a sign I'm tired. Actually, I'm still unsure. Let me just check my toothbrush. Okay, yeah, I have brushed my teeth! When I slumber, I tend to remember dreams more vividly, because I'm like half-awake. It's a bit like day-dreaming really, because I'm sure I can influence my dreams when I slumber as well. This time Oyster was desperate for a hot dog of all things, and we walked through this big candy store-ish thing, which was closing when we walked through. The lights shut off, though the cashiers and others were still counting cash and closing up. One of them gave us a bitch glare, and told us to get out. It felt a bit like being a child and getting reprimanded by a grown-up, so we scurried out. I'm pretty sure Oyster and I was accompanied by our younger sisters (and maybe more people). I was sure I saw a burger store on my Stay app, so we walked in the direction I thought it would be, and we ended up walking through an indoors/outdoors parking lot. It just happened to have a kitchen there, with loads of cake. In the fridge, which was placed outside of the kitchen, in the parking lot in the location of where you'd find a ticket dispenser-- there were more cake, but also fruit and eggs. I told Oyster to just eat some of it, but she wasn't having it. So we walked on. I can't remember more of that dream, but I do wonder if we ever ended up at the burger shop. I watched Grand Designs for the first time in ages yesterday, and it's a new season, because I hadn't seen the episode. It reminded me of my love for velvet sofas. I have a bit of a confusing style. I like classic pieces, sometimes minimal, and also safe colours. But I also fall in love with pieces people would classify as ugly. Although I'm probably sleep deprived, I managed to get my clothes on and get to the post office. There's a few packages coming my way in the near future, which is always exciting. Even if I mustered up energy for the post office, there was no way I would be stepping a foot inside the mall. That'll be a task for tomorrow probably. I did actually exercise, which is a surprise. Can't remember last time I did it, so that's always a good thing. Another good thing, is that I might have found my winter boot. The quality of it is pretty lacking, but it's literally the only store that sells exactly that look. Oh, I have browsed for the kind of boot for ages now. Oh dear. It appears it's sold out everywhere. It just really isn't my time at the moment. Crap. 

loving you makes jesus cry

Whenever I go to a concert, I always film my favourite song(s) on my phone. Obviously, I'm always busy trying to enjoy it, so it's mostly just audio and really dizzying footage. Regardless, it's important to me, and I always go back to listen to the audio. I was just doing some kind of costumer survey for my regular concert-throwers, and I ended up googling Kodaline. And I just realised anew that I've lost all of that footage. I lost footage of All I Want, standing almost at front of the scene. It probably sounds ridiculous, but it kind of breaks my heart, and it almost made me cry. Oh fuck, just remembered One Direction as well. The things I've learned from it, is to save it somewhere for safekeeping. Currently sending all of my videos to myself. Videos in general, are important to me. I take a lot of pictures, snaps from day to day. Videos, however, are kind of rare. And although I preserve my pictures like (almost) nothing else, I think videos are of sacred kind. It's rare that something makes me feel as fuzzy, as when I watch an old video. I am still listening to Little Mix, and I've fallen in love with Nobody Like You. Pretty sure it's my favourite. I also really enjoy Touch, which must be their most mainstream-song to this date. When I first heard it, I actually thought it was someone else. If they don't make a single of it, I'll the shocked. It's a tune. I had a proper dance-party before bed yesterday, and Touch was definitely one of the songs I was shimmying it to. I would've thought sleep would come easy, but as it is, I'm not sure how much sleep I got. I can definitely feel the lack of sleep. Hopefully that means I'll be out like a light tonight. Since I skipped cleaning yesterday, I did a quick sweep today. I was going to go to the shops today, finish off my nephews gifts. However, I'm actually so tired, I can't see that happening. Lynx actually just called, and it seems like the new babe is most probably a girl. If it's true, it'll be really really great as the two previous are boys. Mum and I both cheered loudly when we heard, which prompted my youngest nephew to cheer as well. Obviously it would be great either sex, but I would love it for my sister to experience both sexes. Am already picturing buying clothes for the babe. 

fingers on my buttons and now you're playing, master of anticipation

Når jeg ikke har sovet på en stund, har jeg en tendens til å "se" merkelige dyr i hagen. Jeg har blant annet "sett" en ape i epletreet, og en flaggermus utenfor soveromsvinduet. I går hørte jeg på det nye albumet til Little Mix mens jeg spiste middag. Det ble nesten litt sånn sittedans, og jeg liker det meste. Føler at det har en sånn "empowering" følelse over det, og det er jeg absolutt med på. Det er likevel noen sanger som jeg tenkte nei til med en gang-- flere enn jeg trodde. I dag er det første advent, jeg har hørt julemusikk utenifra. Usikker på om det kommer fra kirka, eller om det er noe grantenning. Uansett, det var en veldig hyggelig overraskelse. Mamma kom med en haug gamle fotoalbum med bilder fra barndommen. Jeg er kanskje ikke så stor nå, men jeg var en stor baby, er faktisk den største av fem barn. Nå sitter jeg og ser på håndball, hvilket nesten "skriker" jul for meg. Det er første kampen jeg har sett med de nye rekruttene. Det har jo vært en gradvis utskiftning de siste årene, men i år føler jeg at det kun er nye. Det er absolutt nødvendig, men det er kjipt når en blir glad i spillere, også får inn spillere som ikke er helt der ennå. Mens forventninger tidligere har vært gullmedaljer, så er forventningene mine ganske lave nå. Det høres jo absolutt ikke særlig bra ut, men det blir jo veldig spennende å se hvordan jentene utvikler seg.  

say the word darling, you know just how to hold a sucker down

Alle de elleve pasientene jeg hadde ansvar for skulle ta blodprøver i dag morges, men med tanke på alle andre ting som skulle gjøres samtidig, så gikk det veldig bra. Det var liksom et punkt hvor alt gikk så "smooth", og jeg stresset så lite. Som regel er første natta den verste fordi du ikke kjenner til rutinene til pasienter. Men denne gangen gikk det veldig fint, hvilket får meg til å lure på hvordan neste blir. Jeg prøver en ny rutine med tanke på søvn, og jeg må innrømme at jeg liker rutinen veldig godt hittil. Som vanlig gleder jeg meg til å komme hjem til senga. Nå er det to uker til avreise nordover, og i den nærmeste tid håper jeg at jeg har tid til å gjøre litt research. Har vært der to ganger fra før av, men har aldri tenkt på at det er steder og aktiviteter jeg kunne vært interessert i. Det blir også gøy å få møte pusekattene til Mog og Volla. Jeg er vel mer hundeperson enn katteperson, og det skyldes mest fordi at katter skremmer meg litt. I den grad av at det noen ganger føles ut som om de kan stirre deg rett inn i sjelen, og har tanker som "ha, se på det dumme mennesket der. Klarer ikke engang å åpne posen. Huff, de har så patetiske 'klør'". Litt sånn, "jeg er bedre enn deg, menneske". Mens hunder i mitt hode er ganske dumme, så er katter liksom gjennomtenkte og utspekulerte. Har faktisk fått et par julegaveønsker nå, og det er veldig fint med tanke på at jeg liker å være ferdig så tidlig som mulig. Nå er jeg i teorien ferdig med to julegaver! Den tredje, fjerde og femte blir jeg nok ferdig med til uken. Det er så merkelig med secret santa, for det betyr at jeg slipper å tenke på tre ekstra gaver, så jeg kjenner jeg har en tendens til å gå litt overboard med de gavene jeg skal gi. Nei, ja, nå skal jeg lese litt før jeg faktisk må gå ut i "kulden".