I search my skin for the entry point where love went in and ricocheted

“He is the baby of the group but people seem to forget that because of the way that he is and that he is so charming. So it is a little bit upsetting sometimes if you see him with the weight of the world on his shoulders. It does annoy us a bit. He’s a young kid and people are just giving him grief for no reason.” Zayn Malik. 

lose myself in time just thinking of your face

I miss summer. Which is a bit ironic, seeing as I'm listening to Ave Maria. So yes, maybe I miss Christmas too. Not so much the coldness, though. I miss wearing shorts. And not having to wear a jacket. And just hanging out in parks with friends - which is one of my fondest memories from last year. I did get up from bed earlier than expected today - probably because of the sunlight shining through the curtains. Also, I've decided to read The Cather In The Rye. Just not today, because I decided I didn't want to. And well, instead I read a 50k fan fiction whilst watching the world championship in cross country skiing. And yay, the Norwegian men won! I've not always been this invested in cross country skiing. No -- it wasn't until the last world championship that was hosted in Norway (in 2011), that I started watching it. And I have fond memories from when I was in school, and we'd beg our teachers to let us watch. And when they didn't allow us, we subtly tried to watch it on our computer screens. I'm going to finish my log today (heh, a bit delayed), because I was literally nodding off yesterday whilst editing the last parts of my paper. And then I went to bed, finally able to close my eyes. But then I remembered I'd forgotten to put in something very essential to my paper. So I ended up throwing my duvet off and turning on the computer again. On another note - my sister bought me some avocado, because I was craving it. That and chocolate, but I can't eat chocolate until tomorrow, so avocado it is. Also, I've come to the conclusion that apart from all the Narry and bromances in general, my favorite parts of the TMH tour is when Niall is doing these random dances (links people - and yay, finally found a gif of the Nouis dancing). Also, I think I might do a "favorite performances" blogpost from the tour thus far. Because there are lots of songs I'm a bit surprised by. Surprised of how much I enjoy them, that is. Adios, though. I'm jumping in the shower now. (The title of this blogpost is actually lyrics. Not just something I wrote about Niall Horan, although it sometimes occurs. 'S just a bit funny, because it sounds like the words of a fangirl, but are lyrics from an Adele song). 

I want you to hit the pedal, heavy medal, show me you care

Oh wow. I'm so overwhelmed I can feel a tear pressing out. This is proper feels, which according to Urban Dictionary is defined as: "A wave of emotions that sometimes cannot be adequately explained". Basically, the first two shows of the TMH tour was done yesterday, and my Tumblr dashboard exploded with pictures and gifs. And I was like "3,2,1 let the whispers begin". Which basically means let the bromances begin. I don't know if you remember this. Well, yesterday this happened. (There are going to be quite a few links in this post, just so you know). During their costume change, they always have these little videos to keep the people preoccupied. And what do we get? Uhm, One Direction in undercover. Yeah, that's Louis. Also, you get shirtless Nialler and Harry in the bath. And Zayn in the shower. Because, well, Niall shouldn't be the only one to strip down, should he? Now if they could just get Liam and Louis to do the same. Oh well, there was a lot of Narry last night (four links here), so that's more than enough for me. And then it's my underdogs. Niall and Lou. They even did synchronized dance moves, but now I can't find the gif, which makes me sad. Also, there's Liam singing to Niall, because he wants to bring Goldilocks to an Iron Maiden concert. Obviously. Also, casual hip thrusts against each other between Niall and Zayn? I'm writing this with a wrinkle on my face, because I'm not quite sure what they're doing exactly. Also, can we discuss Niall's outfit in these two pictures? Because, uhm, the rest of the boys were dressed up like this. And then you have Niall who obviously thinks he's joined an Australian band or something (did someone say 5 Seconds of Summer?). I mean, I'm pretty sure it's suitable to wear tank tops that dips that low in Australia. Just not so much in Britain, where I'm pretty sure it's still very cold. Oh well, I'm not complaining. Actually, I'm applauding. Let's have a prayer circle for more nipple slips, shall we? Oh all right, I'm leaving you to eat a hamburger. Because if I don't get any more food in my stomach now, I'll might go even more delirious and post more posts like these. Can't promise I wont - even with a satisfied tummy.

casual celebratory ziall kisses

Once upon sometimes Zayn kisses Niall. And sometimes Niall kisses Zayn. The end.

let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain

Sorry, but this was too adorable not to post (here's a Nouis taking a nap together too -- don't remember if I've ever posted it, but it makes me melt). Like, sometimes I imagine One Direction are a bunch of golden retriever puppies. And can you imagine Niall and Harry as puppies taking a nap together? (I feel like I should insert a gif of someone melting to a puddle). I've gotten a cold, and it's the most annoying thing ever. Makes my nose run like crazy, and I've kinda got plugs in my ears -- making my ability to hear a bit worse. And you know the thing I'm most miffed about? I can't sing a song without getting breathless (eating also becomes a bit of a problem). I'm just really glad it's the weekend, because I won't have to go around sniffing. When I woke up today I was really tired. I think the tiredness finally caught up with me, seeing as I wasn't tired on Tuesday or Wednesday. But I sort of just wanted to cry a bit. Because I was so tired, and my throat was all dry and my nose stuffed. I guess you can say I was a bit miserable. Nevertheless, I carried on with the day -- because if it's one thing I've learnt about myself for the past weeks, it's that I absolutely hate people that complains about the same thing over and over again. I'm not saying that you shouldn't complain about things - I mean, I've complained about having a cold in this blogpost. But there's a boundary as to when it's enough. Like yes, I heard you ten times ago. No need for further complaints about the same f-ing subject. On a much happier note, here's a cover of We Found Love, which I found very enchanting. Also, I think the rap is really good. I'm mostly only listening to covers these days - don't really know why. Maybe it's because of talented people like this - it's because of her I started to actually listen to Bon Iver. I mean, I've heard Skinny Love loads before. But when I read the description bar, and watched the video, I kind of cried. And if people can make me cry, they kind of have my attention. And that's how I got into Bon Iver. (Cool story bro). Maybe I should try find some new music. I'm actually going to do school work this weekend. Like, honestly. I'm trying to finish my paper this weekend, because I'm too tired at weekdays to even get anything done.

if you're homesick, give me your hand and I'll hold it

Go get a cuppa (cup of tea obviously), cause diz shit iz gonna to b loooong. I promise I'll never write like that ever again (can't really promise anything, because I'll probably forget this promise in the future, and then do it again. Plus, never say never). Here's three random pictures I snapped during the weekend. First - it's been snowing a lot lately, mostly because it's milder. Which, to be honest, feels a bit illogical. However snow is kind of pleasant, because it makes things prettier. Everything just turns white and lovely (no racism!!! extra exclamation points because (tempted to write bcuz. omg an extra parentheses in a parentheses) I'm Asian, and therefore I'm no racist). Second - the 90's party I went to. And look! The guitarist has an afro! I admit that I'm slightly fascinated by afro's. It's mainly because I kind of want to have one myself (maybe for a day, though - not a lifetime. I'll stick with curling my hair). The band played various songs from the 90's, such as; Nirvana, Smash Mouth, Blink 182, Green Day etc. Can't really remember more, because I've got a lousy memory and because I don't know the names of the songs. I just know I've heard them before. Oh, but they played a song. A song I really really love, and that I've mentioned on this blog a few times. And it totally made my night. I'm completely serious, it really did. I'll leave you to guess the song (no it's not by One Direction. Or Ed Sheeran, though that would also make my night or day). Third - I came home yesterday, and all of a sudden there was a wolf sitting at my desk. I didn't notice for about five minutes, when I realised there were three picture frames on my desk rather than two. And I knew that my sister had been drawing a wolf, because she showed it to me on Saturday and asked for my opinion. But I didn't know it was for me. And I guess my heart melted to the ground, found something true. (Sorry, just had to do it, because in my mind, there is a song for everything. Now guess the song). No, but the little part of my heart that belongs to my younger sister swelled a bit. And I remembered why I love her (joke, course I love her).

I'm currently listening to People Help The People by Birdy. Because apparently, I am infatuated with Birdy at the moment. Or, just this song. I have the Take Me Home album cover (One Direction) stuck to the wall above my desk, where I basically sit every day. And it's been there for over a month. And I've just realised that none of the lads are actually looking in the camera. You can only see the profile of their faces, which is a bit weird. Because it's mostly their faces that sells?? I'm actually going to lie in bed and read fan fiction for the rest of the day, before I go to bed. I'm currently reading a Lirry (Liam and Harry) one, which is a bit rare, and it's not a ship I can actually visualize in my mind. But the thing is, the less a ship is shipped (read that out loud - sounds funny), the better the fan fiction is. So sorry for this shitty blogpost, but I'm seriously tired, and I feel like sleeping. I mean, you could go watch some Youtube or something. Oh, wait though. Did you guess the song? No? Yes? Okay, drumroll. The song was .. Teenage Dirtbag by Wheatus!

Louis and Niall can be creepily synchronized sometimes. Just sayin'. "Nouis" is slowly invading my heart. I've always been fond of the "ship". But it's rarely ever been them, and it's kind of hard to "ship" someone together if they have really little interaction. Still, I'm always chanting for the underdogs. Also, during their performances in America in December (MSG and Jingle Ball??) there were actually quite a lot of "Nouis" action. Also, I was right. Or I suppose, the rumour was right - One Direction were in Africa! And apparently they are going to Asia in not so long either. And now that the Africa rumour was true, I'm pretty sure the Asia rumour is true too. People, they are expanding. It's like watching a new virus, and no one knows of any cure. And it's just spreading like wildfire. Anyways, it's really cold outside these days. And my skin is not happy - it's really dry. I want to put a sad smiley here, but I feel like I've already turned this blog into a Tumblr with these gifs. Better not try to make it a chat too. Also, my goal for tonight is to go to bed early. And not go to bed one and a half hour later than planned. 

I wish you'd hold me when I turn my back

Oh my Ziall heart. I love how Niall seems so unaffected. Like getting a smooch from Zayn is such a usual occurrence. I'm definitely changing my background picture on my iphone to this. Ah, the glee. I've come to realise that I love all 1D-bromances as long as it has Niall in it. Honestly though, Narry and Ziall are my favorites. I like to go for the underdogs, rather than the obvious ones (Niam and Larry). And it seems now that Lilo (Liam and Louis) is the new thing. And I don't quite know what I feel about Louis learning Liam to be mischievous. I guess he'll just lose his title as "the sensible one". But I'm also hoping Louis is helping Liam deal with his recent break-up with Danielle. Which again, I don't quite know how to feel about. It's like .. nooooo, true love doesn't exist anymore. And I really did love -still love Danielle. And I absolutely love how she's still a fan. It's 2:11 am, and I've just handed in my paper. It's no returns now, and I really do hope my teacher won't choose mine to go through next time my group meets up. You know, seeing as most of it has been written while I'm so close to falling asleep, and the fact that I haven't really checked it for flaws. But hey, I just wanted to get it over with. Right, I'm going to go brush my teeth while catching up on some Youtube, and then finally go to bed now. Bon nuit m'ladies.