We live in a generation of not being in love, and not being together. But we sure make it feel like we're together, cause we're scared to see each other with somebody else

Drank an apple cider to drown my sorrows due to my exam results. Haven't been drinking alcohol for a while, so I suspect the cider has made quite the dent. The average grade for the exam was a D, which, I personally think says a lot about the exam itself. I should probably be really angry about the whole thing, seeing as I spent so much time and effort revising. However, I sort of don't care. The only thing is that if I want to do a redo, I'll have to read for it whilst being in "praksis" and trying to figure out what to write about for my bachelor. It's just a bit too much, and I don't know if I could possibly handle it. I am going to let myself sulk today, and then I'll get back on my horse. For me, I think it's important to embrace the emotions when exam results are revealed. Regardless of the results, I rarely get really happy or sad. It's more of a "alright, that's fine", then I go on with my life and forget about it. In a way it's good I guess, I don't get too caught up in it. And I've always fiercely believed that grades doesn't decide whether you're smart or not. But still, I am going to try to embrace it more now. Maybe have a little cry or summat. My patient stopped me today and asked: "are you always this happy?", and I answered: "no, everyone has bad days". He said "I don't believe you, I think you're always like this". I told my co-student this, and she said: "yeah, you're always really happy and smiley". And I had to stop and think if I really am. I don't really think I am, but maybe I am? Yesterday was a good evening at "praksis" I thought, and it was really nice being with my co-student. Today was also good, though the morning was really rough. Felt a lot like I had slept for three hours when my alarm went, and I still feel a lot like I'm going to crash, so I might go to bed early tonight. I am half tempted to just get into bed now, and read fan fictions. But I am supposed to do school work and exercise, so my wishes will probably not be indulged. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day, and my head won't be this full.